Back to December

When can I stop feeling sad when I think about you?

It's Christmas Eve. And it makes me think of you again. So I look through the old photos. I didn realised you've grown old and there are more and more white hairs on your head..

You're a big tree, holding us together.Giving us support. Never endlessly caring for us, worrying us.


I remember, there's once, Uncle Micheal ask me, what animal resembles himself, I said rooster. Because at time time, I think rooster is nice and not scary and easy to find, easy to be with. This is just like Uncle Micheal. Always willing to teach me new things, fascinates me and most important, play with me.

Then he ask again, what animal resembles Uncle Yim. I'm whispered "bulldog". This is because, Uncle Yim is large and fierce and makes me trembles. It's like he can simple crash me without effort.  Whenever he is around, I'll be very stiff. I dont understand why I'm so afraid of him that time. I trembles and my hearts almost stop whenever I show him my report card from school. I tried to avoid him in all means at home, scared that he will give me extra revisions, dictations and assignments.

And this man became one of the most important in my life that I feel stupid for being scared of him, feeling silly for avoiding him at home. I wished I could have more time to be with him now.


Another long post about you again.
How I wished I could go back to the December, when you're still around.

Love you, and hope that you'll watch over me, and him and her.

About the Doom's Day

Most of the people is mentioning and discussing bout the Doom's Day, which is predicted to fall on 21st December.

They says, the world will be in total blackout for 3 whole days due to the alignment of the universe..  Donno what shifting from 3-D to Zero-D and go to 4-D thing. =_=

Seriously, I rather you swept us all than have 3 day of darkness.

Imagine staying in Kuala Terengganu, which is the monsoon season now, we dont need 3 days of total darkness to increase our misery. Other than that, I have no time for 3 days break. The week of these total blackout suppose to be my study week and I have 3 damn Test 2 and 1 presentation. FML.

I dont know why my Tests seems endless. I have Tests every week. If I dont, means that week have presentations.


And people should be spending time doing things they like and being with their loved ones, and for us, who are studying away from home, this is the worse form of death.
We died in the state of
- having no nice food for the previous month (since mid-sem break, worse for those who didn go home during that time)
- having no relatives with us other than our beloved housemates and coursemates
- very cold or soaked, due to the non-stop rain here
- not even sleeping on a comfortable bed (we bought cheap mattress here)
- not even wearing one of your favourite garments
- not even have the chance to do something we like
- and lastly, not even have the chance to see our beloved one for the last time

If I believe that the doom's day is coming and I spend my time doing things I like, then the dooms day please come. If not, I will have another dooms day coming. Spent 3 happy day and then face the consequences of not doing revisions.


And finally,my conclusion is, I dont believe about Doom's Day. If it come, better kill me and all those cockroaches all together. So that cockroach will finally extinct.

My Wide Range of Interest

I am practically interested in everything except doing vigorous activities such as sports and excercise.
So as outdoor activities like hiking, camping, or even under the sun.

Other than that, anything, simply everything can catch my interest.

I can read and read and forget my meals.
And imagine I reach the level that my mum commented "READING AGAIN? CAN YOU PUT DOWN THAT BOOK?"
Haha.. usually parents will be very happy to see their children reading.. dunno why she like tat one. Ish.

Dramas. 
I layan everything. Means I watch everything. 
Korean. Hong Kong. Taiwan. China. English. Never started tamil yet. >.<

Animations. 
OMG. Super addicted and I can watch and re-watch them and still can laugh one.
Recommendations: ONE PIECE.
(I have 5 pending tests now and I still got time to promote One Piece, proves that I'm super die hard fans)
First, I watch FairyTail.. this kind of animations is those adventurous and full of warming friendship type. At that time, only 80++ episodes out, and after I finished them, I felt so sad. =( Parting with Natsu and Grey Fullbuster.. then my friend copied OP to me and OMG. *beams*
Best animation. And the best of the best is, it is long and you wont feel sad because you know it wont end here. 
You know the feeling when you read a book and it comes to the ending you felt so sad and feel like you dont want to leave..


Knitting. Cooking. Arts and Crafts.
I did all of thing in my free time. ^^


And latest interest is, I read manga too.

It's Good To Have Awesome Group Members

As usual, every semester have group assignments, group projects and it is very important to have good groupmates. Because, in these assignments, one human strength is not enough. Especially when the time allocated is not enough and there are lots to do. 

I m now working on my Air Quality Monitoring Report, which is a report done based on our sampling on two monitoring sites, the urban and rural area, indoor and outdoor. Tomorrow is the due date. And our baby is almost done. Yes. Thank God. 

I am very happy that this report was done without major arguments and most of the group members are very very co-operating. We sit down, discussed and divide work. And each of us work out on our own part, and when we finished, we volunteered to do more, help the others and in the end, things were done smoothly. Very glad as I'm doing half of the compilation and edit the grammar and proof read. Most of the things were done by the time I want to compile and I just have to edit the sentences a bit to join everything. 

Glad. And happy. 

Okay. Only the Appendix and Conclusion part left. We have 5 hours tomorrow to do this. 

My Awesome 22nd Birthday Party

Celebrated my birthday during the Mid-Sem Break.. >.< A week after my real birthday..

I've invited my beloved OGG friends (secondary school friends) and some relatives.

I love them. They brought sooo much laughters and joy into my life. Soo much. 

My brother... Showing off his hairy belly. Hahaha

I love him too. ^^

My bro and his super shy girlfriend. >.<

Yee Hern. I met him on my 5th birthday. His dad work with my uncle. 

I still remember, he and his sister came with his parents. 

And since then, they came over to my house on every occasions and became my very best childhood friend. We went to vacations in Miri together. Played together. And growed together.

We have the best jokes, and the best stories. 

I know our friendship is the forever type. Or more like a family now. 

 

 

 Yvonne and Joee.

My best cousin, more like a sister. We've shared all year end vacation at Brunei together. 

And she know my likes and dont likes so well.  

 

 

 Dellbii. 

My bro's friend. He is so dear to us and he is as well as my brother. ^^

Fei. Yi Tong and Mei Yee.

Mei Yee made me cards. *Love max*

She painted some One Piece characters for me and there is a huge Chopper. 

The paintings are so so so beautiful and nice. Better than printings. 

I've heard of blue moon but this is the first time seeing a blue sheep.

Present from Bao Bei Yi Tong. The sheep is very cute right?! 

Muacks. Thank qqqqqq~

Present from Him Him and Kei Kei. 

Haha, it is the neck rest. 

Him Him is Jun Kit. He met some sifu and changed his name.

A Chopper doll from Hwa and Sek Yen and Mok. 

I asked for a Bon Clay or Ace doll next year. 

My one and only photo with Stickkie. <3 br="br">

Guess what he gave me?

A lionhead rabbit. 

We named it Casper. 

CUTE MAX RIGHT??

But Casper is a mad rabbit. She bites.

She is very timid and she havent adapt to the new surroundings so she is acting aggressively. 

=( Hope she can be more gentle. 

 

 

 My birthday cakes.

They sang my birthday song like a death march. Super slow and low key and funny max.

After the birthday party, my dad is half drunk. >.< 

We chatted until 2am in the midnight. 

It's fun to listen to him talk when he is drunk because he is making up many theories and expressing many of his brilliant ideas. I always said that I'll nominate him as the President if we have the same election as US. Haha.

 

 

Okays. After the chatting session, we went to bed. We all share the same room, me, my bros and Yee Hern and his mum and little bro. Night doesnt end here.

We start chatting again and talked about ghost stories. And we played ghost pulling legs and I shouted like mad.

It's like returning to the time when we're kids. So fun. Although Yee Hern scared the shit out of me. 

 

 

 This is the night I celebrated my 22nd birthday. Awesome. 

Birthday Wish from my best friend.

Just now Yi Tong called. 
First, she greeted "Hello~~~" with her bitchy bitchy styled voice.. 

Then she wished me Happy Birthday and blurt out a shit load of crap.
She said I decided to celebrate my birthday late, so she wished me happy birthday a day late. I was like HUH?? What the hell is she talking about and asked her what is the date today.(I thought she mistaken the date). And I told her today is 3rd of November.
 And she say "Ya lo, 3rd ma, I purposely wished you a day later one!".

Heartbroken. TT^TT

She thought she missed the right day so she came up with the *wish me a day later*lame excuse.

Then I told her, my birthday is on 4th November. 4TH NOVEMBER, MISS LEE YI TONG, AND ALSO MR EDDIE CHANG!!

Then Yi Tong explained, she scared that she forgot, so she made a mental note to start wishing me two days earlier and then, her mental notes overpowers her conscious mind and makes her think that my birthday is on 2nd instead of 4th.

 When I shouted at her that I'm really disappointed, she passed to her boyfriend, Eddie. 
And he is covering up for her. He said that she thought she missed it and she abandoned her dinner and called me immediately. And he said that they've preparedmy present. *He used this point to distract me!*

When I endded the call, I laughed at how muddled she can be. 
But still, she is still very dear to me.


Anyways, it's just a very mindless mistake. And this is what she usually will do. 


And this is the story of the mistaken birthday wish from my best friend this year..

When I Lost The Center of My World

Ever since I know how to read, think and make decisions, he is the one that affects all my resolution. I put all his expectations as my guidelines and all his orders are my goals. Showing him my best is my responsibility. And I'd never want to disappoint him.

I forgot since when, I've rooted this kind of thoughts.
When I work, I want to work somewhere that I can stay with him.
When I have holiday, I want to work for him, keeping him in company.
When I need to apply for internship, I'll find somewhere near him so that I can accompany him.

This is the problem. Now, when he is not around anymore, I lost my direction.
When I encounter problems in my studies, and I need guidance, I really hoped that he was still here.


I've started to looking for companies for my internship. So stressed and confused.
I dont know where to choose, what to choose and how to choose.

I wanna find some place with accommodation but there were few in Ipoh or K.L.. 
If he was here, everything will be much simpler. I can continue putting my scope around him. Or even work for him. 


Missed you so much. Once again, I'm really willing to exchange anything to have you back in my life. I bet he would do anything to have you back in his life too.



Sorry, cried again when I think of you.
I will fulfill my promise. I'll take care of him and I'll make you proud. 
Love you always, Uncle.
 

Wastewater Treatment Plant Visit

As I've mentioned in the earlier posts, I have an assignment which require me and my group members to visit a waste water treatment plant of a private industry and understand how it works and what happens in the plant. 

It's soo soo sooo hard to find a proper industry and finally with some help of some friends, we found Petronas Gas Berhad. *Thanks to her, it's a wonderful company!*

First, I got the person-in-charge's (PIC) contact number and tried contacting him.. And he was soo busy and my application is so rush because I sent the letter on Sunday and I want to make the visit on Thursday. Felt soo sorry for causing them so much trouble.



We drive there (from K.T. to Paka, Dungun). Reach there and the the PIC came to guide us to their Gas Processing Plant (GPP). He was a very friendly man!

Reach there, they provide us breakfast. Oni 5 of us and they prepare a large plate of fried mee hun, large large plate of tuna sandwiches, cream puffs, fruits and keropok.. and also Teh. Owhhh.. 

After the breakfast, we listened to the simple briefing about safety and about the GPP..

We've to wear like this when we enter the site.  Personal protective equipment (PPE)

 

Like teletubies? or drain worker. But everyone that work here wear like this. They put the employees' safety and health in the very very first place.

You know, all cars here park in reverse parking style. This is to ensure that when there's any emergency,the cars can straight leave without causing difficulties.

We're not allowed to take pictures of the plant.. company policy thing...


The engineer that guide us throughout the plant is so kind. He answered all our questions and keep asking "Anymore questions?" Haha.. 

And, after the visit (around 1.30pm).. The PIC even call us stay for lunch! They even prepared lunch for us. Big pot of seafood tomyam.. fried chicken, sambal prawns, vege, and fruits and puddings!!


There are soo generous.. HAha..

Oh, because we're not allowed to take photos of the plant, we took many photos of the PPE. >.<

Toilet photos. Haha.. They have bodyshop handwash and bodywash in their VIP toilets! Haha..


Thats all for the day. 


Thanks to En. Nordin, the person-in-charge for preparing everything and treat us so well even we gave short notice. And thank you Mr. Firdaus for explaining so much.

My Wish List of 2012

My birthday is coming soon and people usually give presents on birthday.
I've already started hinting peoples around me about preparing me a birthday present..
But, buying birthday presents is a very difficult thing to do and most of the time, we buy something they dont really need or already have. ^^
So, a friend suggest me to do a wish list. 

Here is my wishlist!!

I will update this list whenever I think of something new. *winks*


1) Cute neck pillow (neck rest)

I'm always taking bus back home and to Terengganu and it takes around 7-8 hours. Means I've 7-8 hours time on bus.. My neck always ache when I reach Trg and whn I sleep on buy, my head will sway left and right. *no good, it makes me nauseas*
So, I really need one of this!
I want cute cute ones.. and not those will small small white round grains inside.. Preferably cotton or polyester.. ^^

 

2) Cute fat and short bolster

I have a rabbit Pupu here but Pupu is too slim for me to hug..

Thn I have a Cinamoroll plushie. It flattens after one semester of sleeping and hugging =(. 

Then Stickkie bought me a Cupido.. Its very wide but flat. Hard to hug.  And then,I always saw my honey hugging a fat and short green bolster and then I feel like wanting one too. Hers is a very simple one.. I like cute max ones... ^^

 

*this size* 

3) Bedsheets (single bed)

Either Doraemon or Winnie the Pooh ones ^^

 

4) Hand made cards 

I've made many for my beloved ones but I never actually get one. *sad* 

Simple handmade cards or quote cards will do. 

Ish.. Need to post it here to ask people make me one. XD

5) Handphone casing (htc Sensation XE)

It's  hand to find a casing for my phone.. =( My casing now is sooo worn out and the color fades and soo dirty. Jealous of iphone user cos there are tonnes of casing sold in the market and all of them are cute and nice and soooo adorable!

I like pastel colours casing. ^^

6) Cardigan

I like cardigans.. I have a grey one but the wools came off a little bit and then the pocket came off. >.<

Now I'm looking for a salmon color one or a yellow one..

~**********************~

Actually, that are the things I can think of. 

Something I really want.

Other than that, clothes, dresses, hair ribbons or any cute things also can. 

Cute pencil cases, cute water bottles, cute note books, cute ornaments..

Everything or anything cute. Pinkish. ^^ 

Lovess..

Way Behind the Others

In the previous post I mentioned about visiting a wastewater treatment plant thing and a air quality monitoring project. 

As I've said before, I still haven get a proper factory that met the assignment requirements and thus, I cannot proceed. 
And as for the air sampling one, me and my group members worried about this and that.. scared that it might rain. And so, the sampling still cannot start. We planned to do it next weekend. Hope that no one borrowed the equipment before us.

My coursemate (I name her Sweetie) which is also my housemate and groupmate just inform me that some groups have already started their sampling sessions and done their w.w.t. plant visit. 
Why they so fast one?!

Sigh. My group's progress rate is still a constant. 
Sweetie started to stressed up and worried. I'm worried too but I can do nothing. Just act cool and stay calm so that we dont lost our direction.


Okays. Now need to prepare for the upcoming test and quizzes. 

Pray or the best.

My Semester 5

FYI, I studied Environmental Technology in University Malaysia Terengganu. 
It's located in a very rural state. Imagine no cinemas in their capital town. =_= Duh.
And the supermarkets here DO NOT sell pork or bacon. TT^TT *I wan bacon omelette* 
Okay. Still. I survived the past 4 semester safe and sound.

I thought that my previous semester (Sem 4) is the toughest because I'd Hydrology, which need us to do water samplings. 
Go to different stations, take samples every 4 hours, for a few days continuously. There are many ordeals in the process of taking samples. Snakes. Big huge large ants that bites. Super heavy rain, where you have to protect your equipments. Or stay beside the equipment for 6 hours continuously inside a small bus-stop (it have a roof but when it rains, water can enter from every direction except from the top). 




Who knows, this semester is almost the same. Or maybe worse.
till have to do sampling. But this time for air quality monitoring. And it's almost monsoon season now so it rains almost every evening. The sampling will go on for 3 days continuously and as you know, air quality monitoring means cannot do when it rains so now very headache.
 Dont know what to do. *cham* 

Another one. Waste water treatment thing. I seriously HATE that lecturer. 
He call us to find an industry with their own w.w. treatment plant. Go interview and understand what technology was used and why, how and etc. 

The problem is, there are 15 groups of us. We need to find 15 different factory. And he dont want small factories. Fk. 
We proposed a few to him, but he rejected most of it. This dont want that dont want. He thought my father is Minister or wat, I control one ar? Fk. 
Okay. me and my group mates go find industry nearby (we live near a industrial site near KT). And then, I found out the most ridiculous thing. 
We went to about 10 factories. All of them DO NOT have a w.w.t. system and you know how they manage their waste? The girl tat work in a pet food factory told me that they just discharge their waste into the drain outside of their factory. WTF?! 
Okay. My Malay friend, Fatihah brought me good news. She said she found one poultry factory. We proposed to the lecturer, he said the factory must process at least 500 chickens daily. Luckily that factory met his requirements. But, during the visit, only then we found our that the w.w.t.system is down and the factory discharge their waste into the nearby river. OMG. What kind of world is this?! 
In the end of the day, my group still cannot find a proper industry for the assignment while some other groups ady presented in class. FML. 

 I take one elective course this semester and it's the first time I had a 21 credit hour semester. 


And one more thing. My wonderful timetable. 
I study 4 days a week. 
On my Wednesday: 8-9, 10-12, 12-2, 3-5, 6-7 = altogether 8 hours on a single day. Nice. 

Mid Autumn Festival

When I was a kid, I like Mid Autumn Festivals. Because, there will be celebration, playing candles and lanterns and lots of friends and relatives will come and its a lot of fun. 

But since that year, Mid Autumn wasnt fun anymore. It's very painful to think back what happened.
Scientist says we tend to alter our memories everytime we recall it. Means the more we think of it, the more we will tend to forget. I dont think it's true because that scene couldnt be deleted no matter how hard I tried.
I still dream about him once in a while. It's almost the same thing.. he is either laughing or eating. Sometimes singing. And that moment was so precious and warming that I'd trade anything to make it come true. *wipe tears* >.<

So, since then, I just celebrate Mid Autumn with a simple dinner.. This year, I went home for dinner. To meet my loved ones. To meet grandma and also to meet the apple of my eyes.. Not Stickkie this time. He is the cute little boy that never fails to cheer me up.

The boy is going back to Singapore. *heartbroken* 
No more HinHin at home now. 

Went home 4 days 3 nights. >.< Skipped one day class.. 
Filled my 4 days 3 nights with friends and families. Not a single second wasted. 

Homesick already. TT^TT 
Any medicine can cure homesick? Because this disease is becoming more and more serious. 
I miss everything in Kampar. I missed Stickkie. I missed my mum. I missed my brothers. 





                       

I wanna blog.

I read people's blog very often and I always think that it's a good thing to do. 
I've not updated since March and it's hard to re-post back what happened at that period of time so I'll try my best to update my future here. 

Oh ya. I tried to edit my blog and then I accidentally deleted the background's html code and I cant find back the background so I simply put one up. Duh. The previous one is so much more beautiful. 
Stupid itchy hand. Always pressed the delete button.

Long Silence Big Difference

Decided to revived this blog after a long long pause.. 

I thought of quitting this blog but it had become my secret base for saving my cherished memories and thus, I will continue keeping it. 

I didnt even post a review on my last year's memories... 

I realised that, when people grows older, they tends to change.. Their taste of fashion, their favourite colours or food.. Their usual characteristics.. 

I changed a lot too.

I used to be fond of chocolates.. but now, I think that they are too sweet. 

One thing, coffee is still bitter to me.

Last time, I cannot survived without people talking to me.. but now, I cant stay in my room for more than 20 hours a day.. and speak less than 10 sentences to people around me. 

Even in my room, I can leave my phone aside and do my own things.. and my things never ends.

I surf net.. play games.. watch animation and movies and dramas.. sleep.. daydream.. and then.. one day passed.

This is my life in Terengganu. 

My real life begins when I'm back home.

I talked and played and talked.. and when I'm at home, I can survived one whole week without computer or internet. 

At Kampar, eating a bowl of noodles that cost me RM20 is not a big deal.. but here.. a plate of RM3 rice makes me complain "Wah, what happened ar?! So expensive today!".

And friends. 

I missed OGG. Every single one in OGG.

Being with them, I can be the real me. I need not to please anyone, or pretend to be nice.

I can shout and yell and pinch and punch. 

I love them.

This friendship is the thing that never change.

No matter how long time have passed, when we are together, we are still the us.. 

We teased and we laughed. 

We quarreled and we forget.

We enjoyed the time together and it remains in out heart forever.

Until now, we still remember the funny memories from our secondary school.

And everytime we mentioned about it, we can never stop laughing. Even when we'd laughed about it dozens times ago.

Friends.

My Stickkie.

We'd been through a lot. And now, you're a part of my life.

We need not to talk. And we know that we are there.

Things have become so simple and so normal for us and sometimes we neglected each other.

We quarreled and we continue going. 

We give each other support and listen to each others' sorrows.

I hope that this wont change. 

Family.

My family is full of problems and gossips. 

Because it's a big family.

They fight and complaint, but they can never be apart. The three sisters.

They grumbled and teased.. but they understand each other. The big tree of my house.

My family may not be rich, but my dad never failed to give us what we want.

My mum is fierce and super nagger.. but she will always prepare all the best for us. From food to clothing.. everything is ready.

The is fair, they gave you something, they will take back something in return.

So, even though each of us have our own short coming, we tolerate and compromise. 

Me myself.

There are a few things that I want myself to learn.

Never talk when I'm angry.

Cool down before I speak.

Work harder and never take things for granted.

I want to be someone that makes you feel proud. And my each and every day is a gift, blessed by you.