What my Research is about?

My major is Environmental Technology And Management. Oh both of my Supervisors argued a lot for my major. One opting for Chemical Sciences, one for En. Tech and Mgt.

What is my project is about?

In simple words, my project is to find out what is in the air. In the air we breathe in, there are particulate matter. Particulate matter so fine that they can enter our lungs and live there as long as they like. As you all know, in small dosage, it won't bring any harm, but if you breath in the same pollutant, small dosage, but everyday, can you imagine the effects?

My job is to identify each and every chemical present in the particulate matter. Then, from this compositions, I find the sources, means find who or where this pollutant was mass produced.

We blame other countries for the haze, the haze really come from there? You sure? Not from the non-stop burning of trashes in out backyard?


Yes. My research is that simple. Not inventing new technologies to clear up all pollutants or come up with great theories or equations. I made it a rule to not produce any mathematical equations that can be utilize universally. It's a sin for school students. *winks*
(Actually, the reason is I am not that capable. I am not Einstein or Hawking. I am not that observant to be Newton or Archimedes either).

That's all bout my explanation of my research.

My job now, other than my own project, I am involved in other projects. Voluntarily or involuntarily, I have to do it. I have to write journals. I have to attend conferences and write proceedings. Which is very hard. But from now on, these are my main job scope.

Take or leave.

The Road Taken

The road taken, or the road not taken?

Oh gosh. This blog is ancient. I am sorry for neglecting you bloggie and I am sorry I blogged only when I am feeling not that fine. *not in terms of health

Okay, back to the title of the day. The Road Taken.

I am twenty-five this year. Not that young anymore, not that old either. But some friends or more accurately acquaintances of my age, they already have their family. Lovely little kids. Warm and sweet.

Sometimes I feels like I wished I could be like them. A simple girl, not asking for much, not dreaming for much. Not that attention seeker (yes I am, and finally admitting it), not the kiasu bitch. Just a simple girl, marries, work as a clerk. Went home and cook for my husband, stay at home and do housework (I am quite a good cook and I do keep my room clean and tidy).

But sadly, I am not that kind biddable girl. I am the one that always want to be better. Not the best, maybe the second-best. The shallow chit that likes luxuries. The silly dreamer that really thought that she can change the world.


Sorry, out of topic, back to the point. I am 25, and I didn't get a job after graduating my bachelor degree. Instead, I apply to further my studies. Another 3 more years. And not at overseas universities, but in a quite not-that-developed town in Terengganu. Because I want to work under my supervisor, and stay in my comfort zone. Coward.

I am in a stable relationship for 5 years (still ongoing) and my beloved is working in Singapore. It's not that far away, not that near either. And he needs to work, means not much holidays or leave. When I was still in my Bc. degree, I don't think long-distance is a problem. Maybe it's because he i still studying and there's not much happening around, and I have my roomies here with me. But when he start working, we talked more often, and he visits more often and thus, makes me more dependent and always asking for more. Sometimes I feel it's quite unfair for him because he have to suffer along due to my selfish decision of continuing my studies. But still, he never complaint, just show his never ending support. I am so lucky that he loves me because I believe there is not other that can do the same.

I asked myself all the time, what am I doing my PhD? I got a few ready answers.
1) Because I don't like to work in an office, with the same chores everyday.
2) Because I can?
3) To make him proud? To make them proud?
Only the last reason is more logic and legit (I always keep this to myself), to save the world. To make the world a better place. It's a big dream.

 I am always contradicting myself. I studied about environment, how to protect them, keep the world clean, preventing pollution, treating waste, but I used non-environmentally friendly products. All the time. I thought about it all the time and find that I can't be an actual environment activist. But I really hope I can reduce pollution.

And so, I chose this road. PhD. Nice to hear. Nice to see. Dr. Fong. In reality, it's not that nice. I exchange this with my most precious asset, TIME. I am stranded here all alone. No more roomies, no more bestie. No more boyfriend. I missed so much. But I hope my choice will bear the fruit. I hope I won't regret when I harvest the fruit of the tree I planted today.

I chose this road, and I will not envy the others. I am born not to be meek and gentle.

I am repeating to myself everyday. I can do it. It's worth it. Nothing good comes easy.


FML. I can type 700 words for this blog but I can only write 100 word for my literature review. Well done.

Meeting My Mentor

Did your University practise this Mentor-Mentee tradition, where in our first year, we will be divided in to groups and taken by a lecturer or prof as mentee. They will be our mentor.

They will play a role as our mother/father in university.. They will be concern about our studies and results and we can meet them anytime when we need help.

I have a great mentor (Dr. M). To me, his M means motivation. Every time after meeting him, I will be refill all my determination and get so super motivated XD.

The first time when I met him (in a group, not me alone), he hold a box of paper clips and ask us what is the weight of that little box.

We all guessed and finally he answered, "It is not the weight of the box that matter, it is about how long you hold it. If it's 5kg and you just hold it for 5ses, it wont be a big deal, but if it's 500g but you need to hold it for an hour, now which is more tiring?"

The moral of the story is, dont hold on the problem yourself, we can always share it with someone and every problem have a solution.

Today, our course have the mentor-mentee session again and I'm so excited to meet my mentor again.. XD

First, he ask about our studies and the problems we are facing, is there anything we cant catch up(he says he can meet our lecturer and help us solve the problem) or how is our results last semester..

Some of his meaningful phrases today.. XD I wanna blog about it because I'm afraid that I might forget it.

~*~The most important part in our university life is not the graduation, it the the journey to graduation. Everyone can graduate, but not all of us can fully mastered everything we learned or gained knowledge by our graduation time. 

As long we have tried our best, there is nothing to be regret or sad about.

The most pity things that happened is, one never put a single effort but he gets good result by luck. He may score but that's the only time he can do so. 

~*~ Dont cry because of the sun set, because when the tears cover your eyes and you may not see how beautiful the shining stars was. 

He says, dont simply make decisions because of our emotions, because we may end up missing something better. We still have a long way to go, why so bothered bout the mistakes now? We can always look forward and hope for better.

Let bygone be bygone.

~*~When we are doing group work, dont fussed because that we did more, and never ever go to your lecturers or our boss (when we are working) and complain that we are the only one working. This will just make the others think that we are making up problems. 

And besides that, this can let the others understand how weak is our teamwork and how bad is our co-operating skills. 

People will think that we are not able to be a leader or making the others to listen, to work for us.

No company will want to hire a person that can only work by himself and no one will hire someone who failed to get people's support and recognition. They need people who can communicate and socialise. This is for the benefit of the company.

People will know who have done the most when the time comes.

And one more important advice, "Dont skip meals because we can lowered our productivity when there is not enough glucose supply in our bloodstream".

  

 That's all!! Bye byes~

My Pet Hippopotamus

Some people are annoying to me and I'm sure I'm more upsetting for some people.

My class, with only 70+ people, I can still find a few SUPERs there..

Some are arrogant, some are question-makers, some problem-makers, some aliens (doesnt like to be with the humans one), loads of noise-makers (I am in this group) and some super silencer..

The most major irritating disgusting one is the hippopotamus. 

Duh.. think of this person makes me feel sick, listen to her voice makes me angry. 

As soon as she opens her smelly stinky pipe-like mouth, I will get ignited.

Everything or anything that come out from her mouth is like shit to me. 

 

 Why I called this annoying brat Hippo?

Ans: They got one similarity.. 

YES. I am exaggerating and yes, I hate her and I talk bad about her. I criticise everything she did.

Really cannot stand her "super like to show off" attitude. And her transformation to a dictionary. Duh.

She always thought that she is Google or Wikipedia. She knew everything, and everything is her business.

This kind of person is annoying to the max.

That day in class, we're talking about Bill Gates and my lecturer asked where did he dropped out from and I said Harvard (read it from his Biography in amazon and wikipedia). 

Hippo straight says NO, it's MIT la. It's not Harvard la..

In my opinion: WTF. You wrote wikipedia one leh, like this u oso forget ar? If u dunno then glued up ur stinky drainage la. Dun vomit shit here.

The Hippo is this photo is 100000xxxxx better than the Hippo I'm mentioning.

And her superb English accent.W.O.W.  

Shouldnt you be proud of being Malaysians and speaks Malay? Patriotic wad..

I will never ever forget what she said when I delivered my Public Speaking Persuasive speech..

This damn stupid hippo says "Oh?! Jus now you're giving a persuasive speech ar? I thought it's informative la.. Doesnt seems persuading people oso.."

Fuck you. I am CALLing you to donate your organs after you die! Not telling you to donate your organs.

By the way, how do I inform you to donate?

Like this ar? 

Eh! Hippo, go donate your organs after you die.

Comment: This sentence is commanding.

Please donate your organs after you die, Hippo.

Comment: This is asking or persuading.

Donate your organ la.

Comment: ya.. this is telling or calling. But I didnt put this sentence in my speech also.

Eh! Hippo, you can donate you organs after you die.

Comment: This is informing, but I couldnt just say this sentence only throughout the speech rite?

Between, she didn only crticise my speech, my friends one also. 

And her speech is like a long list of examples of animals.. Her topic is wildlife.

And she holds a piece of paper and read aloud. She is reading to us, not giving speeches.

I hate this big fat annoying stinky arrogant vain and silly HIPPOPOTAMUS!!!

Sorry to all species of Hippopotamus amphibius  for comparing such person with you all.

What a *Wonderful Week* I Had

Monday : Biology Test 2

Tuesday : Electric & Electronic Technology Test 2 + Public speaking Informative Speech

Wednesday : Advanced Engineering Mathematics Test 2

And thank God.. today is Wednesday.. Last paper for this week.

More to go next week..

My "many test per week" started as soon as I reach Terengganu on 21st March..

Thanks to the March re-charge.. I'm fully fueled up to faced the challenges ahead..

All I have to think of is, after all these things, I can go home. ^^

Chinese New Year Cultural Night

18-Feb-2011

Woke up at 8am and went to DSM for full reahearsal.. ^^

This grand night finally came..

It's my first time joining an event in UMT!

I'm under protocol group..

There lots of great performances..

Chinese New Year Cultural Night

First.. it's the sand drawing..

 

Then we have a funny opening ceremony.

After that, it's the Lion Dance. *with poles one*

*I got duty last night thus, cant take photo, so, this photo was found by google search*

It's so exciting and erm.. scary..

Because, when the lion jumped on the poles, from poles to poles, suddenly one pole broke.

And the lion continue dancing and jumping and suddenly, one of them was thrown out. =_=

It's like superman and fly out from the lion costume.

That guy *who fall down*, climbed back on to the poles and continue the show.

And falls again.

And climbed up again.

And third time, he nearly falls.

Omg. Everyone was so so so excited.

Some of them thought that he purposely fall down to create suspense and climax. =_=

Following performances are from the UMT students..

Chinese traditional dance and chinese modern dance..

Indian dance and malay dance..

Then.. ^^ the art of mask changing!

The performer is a girl!! *Leng Lui* and she is so sporting!!

And the performance is like magic!

Just in a blink and the mask was changed..

She shakes her hand and points to her own face. Then she turns her face away for a split second, and the mask has changed. 

*I got duty last night thus, cant take photo, so, this photo was found by google search*

 Behind the stage

Only manage to take a few photos..

 I fold this!! Lotus flower~ ^^

 This is how I looked like.

 This is one of the emcee.. ^^

*photo taken before she style her hair~*

 Me and 2 other girl from the protocol group..

 The two formal emcee..

Serena and Lily

My Fully Used Day

I think it's the first time in UMT that I've a fully used day..

17 February 2011 ^^

First.. I woke up at 8.30am.. 

Prepare for class..

Class ended around 10.15am..

Rushed back to dorm to pack my Eng. Maths and Biology books and went to the library.

Start my work around 10.40am.

First.. I copy my Bio notes.

Then I start doing that *get me insane* Advanced Engineering Mathematics tutorial.

Altogether 58 questions.

Around 11.45am.. went to lunch at the cafe in the library foyer..

12.20pm.. continue my work.

Until 3pm. I can only solved 8 questions successfully!

In 4 hours time, only 8 questions solved?!!!!

Chia Yin almost gone mad because got 2 questions keep hanging half way and she cant continue..

Then.. I went back dorm..

Realised that I've a lot of fallen hair near my wardrobe..

Then, the fan is slower than usual.

^^ suddenly the hardworking side of me turned up.

I cleaned the dusty and rusty fan.

I swept the floor..

I mopped the floor.

I dust my shelves.

Tada.. everything done~ Phew.

Took a bath and went to sleep.

5.40pm. *Received a message*

=Everyone who is involved in the Chinese New Year Culture night have to go for rehearsal at DSM, time: 7pm=

=_= woke up and bath and feed myself..

Rehearsal ends at 8pm because the hall will be closed.

Then, 10pm, committee meeting..

Around 11.40pm only end.

*went to bed and expecting for tomorrow's great day*

Chinese New Year Carnival -UMT-

Organised annually.. 

CNY carnival.. ^^

Got lots and lots of exhibition.. games..

1. Chui Mei -blowing plum flower with ink-
2. Chinese Valentine's day -use a thread.. poke it into 7 needle continuously-
3. making mooncake.. ^^
4. learning TaiChi
5. Making Chinese Knot
6. got Tang Yuen stalls
7. wishing tree..

Got a lot more.. XP 

Some pictures.. ^^

taken from Ling Ling's fb..

 These are the Chinese Knots.. so nice rite?

 Chui Mei..

Plum flower.. dunno whose masterpiece is this..

 me and another girl.. 

our duty is to give out sweets and stand behind the guests..

 Zhi Ying.. doing Chinese calligraphy.. 

 This is the wishing tree..

write ur wish on a piece of paper and hang it on the tree.

   

New Semester

Just like last sem, my timetable is nice..

Not packed.. XP

But, got night class. =_=

My classes have started already.

Advanced Engineering Mathematics.

I hate it. Cos I dont know what is he teaching.

I thought I've taken Differentiation and Integration last sem and I wont be seeing them this sem.. Who knows, this whole sem is all about these. =_=

I got my result slip..

I am very satisfied with it.

Haiz.. hope that I can keep up with this result.

And people around me is still the same..

Lovely one still so lovable.

Annoying one still so annoying.

And it's still raining season.

Sobs..

Cant wait for CNY.

I want new clothes.

I want shopping.

I want good food.

I want to meet my relatives and friends.

   

My Journey BAck To UMT

Finally.. I am posting this.. XP

Not busy actually.. Just lazy XP

Okays.. It start like this.. 

We planned to start driving at 8.30am on Sunday morning..

But of course not 8.30am sharp la.. 

Cos Zhi Ying left her bread and pau-s at home and her mum went back to take it for her..

My mum and dad woke up to eat breakfast with me.. T.T so touching.. My lazy bro woke up too..

The night before this, Stickkie helped me google search the way back to Terengganu..

I've copied down the route clearly..

And then.. journey started..

Ling Ling drove.. and I become the navigator.. ^^

Zhi Ying sits behind like she wasnt there.. She didn make a single noise. =_=

First.. drove happily.. lalala...

Then we got lost around erm.. Batang Kali?

Then.. we found the correct route.. but.. the road to Kuantan was blocked. 

So, we must find another way..

And lastly.. we went to KL and drive back to Kuantan..

Okay.. succesfully reach Kuantan..

Then, find way back to Terengganu.

Lagi syok. 

Saw many cars drove backwards  in our lane..

O.O what happenned? 

Continue driving.. 

Stunned. 

T.T so scared la.. Dont know which way to go back to Terengganu..

T.T drove back to Kuantan and ate our lunch at east Coast Mall..

called Stickkie to google search the route for us again..

The route Stickkie gave lead us back to that flooded road again..

T.T lastly, use my phone's google maps application to find the way back..

Rm5 charged. Sangat berbaloi. T.T

Reached K.T. around 8.30pm.

12 hours journey.

Back dorm..

Our sister went back 2 days earlier than us..

But.. she didnt even sweep or mop the floor..

The room is still so so so dusty.

We cleaned the room.. unpacked our things..

and here we are..

Back to the normal days..

   

When Eagle Mama Left

Sobs.. Zhi Ying went home last night..

She is the earliest among us to go home.. T.T

Unfair.

She got 6 papers.

I got 6 papers too. 

She went back on 27Nov.. Me?! One week later!! 

She used to be the "Mum" in the room..

HAha.. too dependent on her...

It'd became a habit for me to rely on her.

She did her packing and packaging yesterday.. 

First, when I was asleep..

Ying: Ling, help me keep this nail clipper.. Give it back to me next year when I come back.

Ling: O.O *blurred* why?

Reason: Because we all used to use her nail clipper.. T.T I just open her drawer and take it myself whenever I want to use it. *Mama so caring*

Ying: There's still some dried chrysanthemum flowers here.. remember to make tea and drink.

*Sounds like a real mum right?*

Now, Ling's turn to nap and I woke up.

Ying: 

I didn keep my bottle of detergent, just in-case you both not enough, can use mine.

I leave the extension here.. you both can use it.

I still got a few bottles of water.. you two just drink it la.. After tat just put back the bottles there..

It's just like mama is going out for a few days and prepare all things for us.. Haha..

The day without Zhi Ying..

No one pulls the curtains.. No one wake up early in the morning..

No one sitting in the corner all day long..

I need to bring the keys to the toilet.. T.T

Usually Ying will be inside the room so I need not to worry that I dont have the keys to enter..

Hmm.. Missed her actually. 

Because I get used to the room with her making noises.

   

Ridiculous Day? Or Night?

I thought that today will be a good day.. 

Because, we planned to go out for lunch and visit a house that we may rent next year.

Lunch= KFC again.

We like KT's KFC.

After lunch.. Mydin 

No other places..

Thought of making the last steamboat dinner for this semester.. so.. we bought a piece of boneless chicken *for the soup*..

And pick some fried meat balls.. Crab meat.. seafood tofu.. fishcakes..

Sadly.. no beefballs.. and no taufu pok. These two is my favourites!!! T.T

Visit the house. Erm.. 

The house is big.. We still dont have enough housemates.. 

So.. maybe we'll look for another smaller one.. 

Back dorm.. Pass by the toilet before reaching our room.. 

Why is the floor so dry?

*Open taps and see*

WTH?! NO WATER AGAIN???????

4.30pm. Hungry.

Have to start prepare our dinner...

How?

Sneak into the seniors block.. XP 

*Usually their block still have water supply even when ours ran out, cos their block have a huge tanki and less residents*.

Reach the senior block..

I was holding a rice cooker at that moment.. Ling and Ying, both holding plastic bags full of veges and meatballs.

I look retarded. People around us all were busy looking for water to bath.. but us? =_=

Still want to cook?

Continue with sneaking into the block part..

I found an empty unit, with the back door left opened.. I climbed over and entered the house..

It's nice inside!

Fully furnished. Nice rooms..

We washed our bla bla bla there...

Back room.. prepare dinner... eat.. XP

Best part starts.

Where to find water for bath?

Library.. 

So, we quickly packed our things and drove to the library.

Enter.. Sobs.. No more left..

Rushed to FST.

Ling said she know where got nice toilets.

Jeng Jeng jeng~~~

Ling pushed the toilet door slightly.. It's dark inside..

Got a female voice *Ehh!!* and slammed back the door.

I and Ling stopped.. Stunned... 

What was that? What could it be?

First thought = that kind of thing?

Think again.. tat kind of thing wont slammed back the door right?

Nothing we can do.. so we walked away..

Then, we found a tap outside the toilet... 

We took out of plastic bottle and fill them up..

Use those water for washing our face or cook mee..

Then.. we heard a man's voice inside.. and soft woman voice.

WHAT?

It's dark inside. Got girl got boy.

Do what?

Think logically. 

They wont be fixing the toilet lights right?

Ok.. Fine.. We went to another faculty to look for toilets.

Finally. 

We found nice and big toilets.

It started to rain cats and dogs when we finished.. Duh..

Seniors said.. it's always like this. NO WATER SUPPLY.

And this time, it will last for 3 days.

What a day we had.

   

   

My First Final here.. In UMT

I got 6 subjects...

Still got two papers left...
Both needs calculation.. *Maths and statics*

How was the previous papers?
Duh. XP

First paper is Material Eng.
Not bad. Not good either.. Most of the questions appeared in the past year papers before..
I got no answers for the past year.. means.. no answer for the final also. XP

Second paper is TITAS.
LOL. Not very good. I think I can manage to get a B.

Third.. Etnik,.
LMAO. Tough. Cos.. the lecturer called us to read a book.
Questions were things taken from that book.
What book is tat?
Some thing like novel, but not that thick.
Similarities= things are written in paragraph form. Everything in one big passage.
Just read. =_= and memorize!

Fourth.. the killer paper. Basic Organic Chemistry.
Luckily I need not to take the advanced paper.
This paper really can kill.
I didn do well in the mid sem test..
And this paper is far far far tougher than the mid sem test..
Means.. no hope for A.. nor B.
God bless me..


Why every paper seems hard to me?
Is that I didn work hard enough?

Yup.. maybe.

I admit that I'm not the type of people that will work 200% even when 100% is enough.
I am the 70% type.
So, means I am fated to be the B class people. Nothing higher.

I admire those hard working people very much.
How can they maintain their determination?
Doesnt their bed seduced them?
How bout dramas? Food? Games?
I cant stop myself from touching these things.

Some people can stay up late at night *around 3am*.. some people can wake early in the morning *around 4am*.. 

These are the sacrifices they made to exchange good results.

我办不到。。I cant make it.

Only hard working can bring us 100%.

Jia you jia you everyone!

*****

Study with smiles.. 

It's vital for us to secrete the happy hormones to make ourselves less unhappy.

When we're in a good mood, we'll absorb thing faster.

Do not stress up yourself.. stress will just make your brain stuck.

And lastly, study is important, so as your health.. dont regret when it's too late..

StoryTime

That day (last week) I went to the University's clinic, back pain, cant bend down my body.. =_= dunno why..

Doctor said, there's two possibilities.. 

One. Something wrong with your kidneys. WTFWTFWTF. *nearly fainted* T.T I knew the consequences of kidney failures. 

Sobs.. thousands of regrets why didn I listen to my mum.. why didn I listen to Ling Ling and Zhi Ying.. Why didn I drink more water?

Kidney problems mean I must eat healthy and tasteless foods. 

These are what i thought of at the first moment.

Second. Nerves problem.. Maybe my sleeping or sitting posture is inappropriate. 

Phew.. This is better.

I must drink more water from now on. I must stay healthy.

You all too!

   

    

Finals Starts

~Finals Starts~

Prepared for two weeks and finally, the day came. 

 My study planner ^^

Yup. I planned in advance what to study and follow the schedule.

First thing first.

One by one.

No mixed up.

Tomorrow. First paper. 

Material Engineering.

Preparation: 80%

Confidence: 55%

T.T very nervous now. 

Dare not to aim high. Dare not to put high hopes.

Because I knew the feeling of disappointment.

The past two weeks.. all I did is eat and sleep and study and facebook. 

And a movie to entertain myself during dinner.

And games. Farm Frenzy. =_=

Study study and study. 

Stay in the room whole day.

Oh ya.. other than that, I went to the beach. 

It's so near and I started to like it...  *only when it's windy and no sun*.

It's not bad here in Terengganu. 

Hope that everyone can perform well in their exam.

Especially those who work hard.

Because I believe that if we work hard, we'll get the reward.