耳听三分假，眼见未为真。
有时候闭上眼睛，用心去看可能看得更加清楚。






When we sees someone, we can just see the outer appearance... but not their heart..
We dunno what they think.




Not everyone we met will treat us sincerely.

****

看见他们幸福的在一起，可是他是真的爱她吗？
看见他们嬉皮笑脸的一起玩笑，他们是真的开心吗？






Sigh... many social problems in the society.
But luckily, I still haven met this kind of problems.




I was blessed with many good frens.

OMG!!!

taken at year 2006

taken at year 2009

OMG OMG OMG!!!

I looks so so so freaking fat when I was in Form4!!!

Wai Kei...

Taken by Fei

My MUET

MUET = Malaysian University English Test


As I have mentioned b4, it consist of 4 papers.
1) Reading
2) Writing
3) Listening
4) Speaking




Today I did the first 3 papers.


It's my worst writing paper I've ever done.
I ate a tuna sandwich. Dunno what happen, red dots grow on my hands, arms and neck.
SUPER DUPER ITCHY!
I scratched like I have lice all over my body.
Exam time : 10am - 11.30am
Scratching time : 10am - 10.30am


Luckily Sook Fun brought medi with her.. I rub on the spots and felt much better.


After tat I start drafting. (10.40am - 11.00am)


Then I start my essays. Both directed writing and extended writing, in 30mins time.


It's impossible for me to complete both.


I wrote the essays with my ugliest writing ever.




End up, I simply conclude the extended writing's essay didn manage to finish the other essay.






Luckily the other two paper were not too difficult.




Thanks God.






Now I have to put all effort to practise speaking.
I cannot fail any of the other papers anymore.

Happy Happy

Saw a photo of my dear fren with her boyfren..

My dear Wai Kei smile so so so sweet...








very 幸福 right?


无论发生什么事，开心就好。别理那么多，免得让自己难过！

Glad

Feel glad..


One month have passed... everything is becoming better and better...


He is normal now. We are frens now.




Experienced before the feeling of being in love...
Now return to the very beginning.


Very happy that he can accept the reality and dont think much now.


Hope he can get a better one.




Everyone jia you jia you!!!

Chocolates

brag

Self confidence is vital.. but not over confident.
Don't look up on me, it'll make me over confident.
I'm not as smart as you think.




They are putting a lot of hope on me.
Bringing me some invisible pressure.


The burden seems to be heavier and heavier.




I really dont want to be the one you all always wan me to be.
I can study, but I dont like to force myself to study.


Really very tiring.


But I know, you are more tired. Work whole day long, for the family, for us.
You never ask me bout my studies. But I know, you always hoped that I can do well, and get a scholarship. You are always worrying that you cant afford to send me to private universities.
I understand.


No matter how hard, I will continue going.






Sleep too much today... nothing to do.. =_= brag in the midnite...

My Lil Bro

Sport's Day...

I'm wondering Is there any detergent company wanna sign him for advertisement?

He is as dirty as a buffalo..

Auntie Suet's Bday

LAst Wednesday is Suet's bday..

Me, Chun, Ling, Ming Miin celebrated her bday with her at Gold Label..



The food there is yummy (XP I just care bout eating, forget to take some pics)

the bday gal..





Ming miin, Suet and Ling..

i understand le... n_n

After receiving Faye's msg.. I sit in my room... stared at my Organic Chemistry.
Think and think whats happening.


Life is like a stage.
People entering and leaving.
The happiest moment is when everyone is on the stage playing their best performance.
But dont be sad when you're alone on the stage. Because there are people below watching you all the time. Just we're too concentrate on out role, didn notice them.
Until now, my happiest performance is during my secondary school life.
Because it's the crowdest and happiest part.


I should have think for the others too.
I'm here waiting for you all.
You all are outside. Alone, facing the society, with people you are not familiar to. Life must be tough.
Sorry for being inconsiderate.


This is life.


I cant act like a kid, expecting everyone to stay with me.
Forever living in the secondary life. No improvement.


Secondary frens. Close frens. All save in the cherished memories.


Don't worry. I wont be sad anymore. You all need mot to apologise to me when I wrote al thise emo things.
It's just because I still haven understand the fact.

Same vs Different

Faye inspired me to write this.

Same feelings but different people.
The feeling of being with the secondary frens are transfered to the UTAR frens le.

This is what he told me.

A bit sad when I heard this because I'm still the gal in the village. Waiting for the frens outside coming back to me.
Trying to save our frenship and make it long lasting.

But of course it's impossible.

We make new frens in different stage of our lives.
We should know that it's a lie that we cannot live without who.

Anyway, they are always in my cherished memories. Making me laugh everytime I read back the posts.

There were other people who were important to me, and other people whom I was important to. Other people who really knew me.

I pick this line from my fren's blog.

Disappoinment

Today I'm super duper unhappy.

Annoyed by some friends.

First of all, dunno which dumb-bell go walk around spreading silly news bout me falling in love with another guy (another close fren that everyone knows, Yi Chun).

Yi Chun is one of buddies, which I can express my anger on without any hesitating.
He fetch me to school everyday.
He always forget me or leave me behind when there were other friends around.
He is a super 重色轻友 (value lust more than friendship).

They all came to me and questioned me is tat true.

The one that hurt me most is Fei and Lee. You both should know me well. Why you dun believe me?

We all have been friends for so long. You all should know what type of people am I.
Just as I said in my previous post, you all really think that I break with Lee is because of I've fell in love with other guys?
In you all's eyes simple friendship wont exist between I and other boys?
Last time say I like Sek Yen. Then now Chun. Some say I like Hwa.
I don't like any of you!!! You all are my friends.

I just settle one of my problem. Please dun get me another one so fast!


Other than the boys, the gals also make me quite disappointing.

You know, I update this blog is to let my frens that are away from me know what's happening to me. But sadly, they no longer read my blog.

Yi Tong.
During our secondary days, she always say she wont get into a relationship so fast and even she is in one, she wont forget her friends.
But now, everytime she came back to Kampar, she never tell me. I always hear it from the others that she's back. That hurts you know. She is my closest gal fren. She never finds me herself. Usually I'm the one contacting her.
I understand. She have a boyfren now, sure she cant spare so mauch time for frens. But at least let me know you're back.
Do you still remember that the tag box I made for you?

Wai Kei.
The one that I loved so much. When you tell me you are in a relationship, I feel half glad but half worrying. Glad because someone can look after you there and someone is there to care about you. Worry because there rumours bout the boy and you dont know him long, sked that the boy is not serious, worry that he may hurt you.
When you tell me that those gals in KMJ boycott you, I really cant imagine how you feel. It must be bad. You told me about this after it's over because during that time, I've just broke up with Lee. I feel so bad because I cant be with you that time.
How can those foolish gals treat you like that just becuase of those silly things.
You're busy preparing for your exam. Busy till you cant even spend a minute to meet me when you came back for your study week.

Hui Xin.
Leng lui... stil got read this blog? I remember tat after SPM, you are my only reader. Only you leave comments and messages in the tagbox. But I never see you message for a long time. Your last message is at the head of January. It's April now.
Everyday when I open my blog, I hope and hope that one of you can leave me a message. Let me know that you all are reading. But I ended up with disappointment everytime.

Cheong Fei.
You are the worst one. Only you is with me at Kampar but it's so hard to find you! Always push me to find other people. Always leave me alone!


If really no frens are reading my blog, I plan to make it private. Only for certain readers.


I understand. After separating for a year, we all have our own life, new frens. Do you all know, I am staying at home, counting the calender everyday, waiting you all to come back. Waiting you all to find me.

I learnt something * I wrote this for the NubNub*

First time being in a relationship..

In the very beginning, when the mind is still innocent.. Always thought that there is thing's such as eternity love.
But when time passes.. I know that it's just because we're not matured enough.
Influenced by dramas and romance movies.

We are still young. We cant make promises such as forever love. No one is qualified to say so.
Only those grandmama and grandpapa that live lifelong together have the rights to say so.
We cant even gurantee our tomorrow, how to care for the others?

I never regret being with him. As I learnt a lot from him.
I learnt how to care for the others.
How to hold my temper.
And how to be independent.

At first, I really don't have the courage to stand firm. I afraid that I'm not strong enough to face it. So, I choose to keep silent. And wait till you be the first one to spoke out.
And I really understand you too much. You always do things within my expectations.
Thank you very much for saying that.

At first I feel quite sad. But after thinking the whole night, I found my direction. I know what I want and what I should do.

If both of us is always quarreling and complaining about each other, really no point continuing.
Faith is very important for two people to be together.
And you lost this thing.

I know you understand very well what's happening.
Just you haven have the courage to face the reality.

I never regret breaking up with you. I'm much happier now.

I no need to scared that you'll get angry suddenly.
I no need to cut down times to go out wit my frens just to save up more time to accompany you.
I no need to worry that you'll feel unhappy when I go out with other guys.
I no need to worry that I dont have enough time to accompany you.

You also, no need to feel regret because of those promises that you haven done.

After breaking up, you've done many things you've never done last time. If you did these last time, I'll be super delighted. But now, I just feel like
*oooo... free sweets and cookies...*
*sometimes free presents too*

You keep say that I break because I like other guy.
I can tell you, definitely no. I have no mood for a new relationship.
You've know me for so long. You should have know me well.
Felt so disappointed that you think of me like that.
Do I really looks that untrustworthy and unloyal to our relationship?
For the last time, I tell you, we break up because of our own problem. No others.

You can continue treating me well. It makes no different to my life. Just more food and a fren.

Thank you.


My Nubnub have alreay left my heart.
Only a part of the happy moments are left.


You're my friend now. Lee Chee Yoong. Always my friend.
The lame joker.

~Cherished Memories~

Thank You PApa

Hehe... My dearest papa bought me a new camera XP





Love him the most XP



I'm working hard to get my goal.
I study at least 2 hours a day (which equal to the time i used to study 1 week in the past).

I dun wan to make them disappointed.
I'll prove tat I can do it.


Papa I love you the most!!

Meaningful ooh.. ^_^

Envy/ Jealous is a knife.
It'll end up either stabbing the others or ourselves.

Do not put too much hope on certain things...
It'll end up with disappointment.

Eat = a way to appreciate ourselves ^_^
I totally agree XP

Sadness is something we shud face ourself.
Happiness is something we shud share with the others.
Dun spread sadness to the others..^__^

Not everytime you fall down you'll have the chance to stand up again.

IF no one helps you, then go help the others la...

Hope someone can understand this fact.

No nid to bother bout wat other says. Jus do as you like as long as you think it's right.

This one is the most meaningful one.
Dun always tink about what good things you've done for the others.
Doing good things doesnt nid any repay.

(Source: From Alson)

Finally..
A new header..


With the photos of my 3 "lao po"s...


^__^ Love them the most!




Ps. I just simply edit the photo..
No photoshop... Jus use paint =_=

Petronas New Year Clips

Very boring evening... tired of homework..
So I google around for some video clips...


Found some super touching ones...


The Petronas New Year's ads...


Reli cried watching them..


The one bout a kind and loving grandma. (2005's ad) Click here.


The one bout the old folks hoping for reunion. (2006's ad) Click here.


The one bout a son, feeling regret for not treating his dad well. (2009) Click here.




After watching this, hope everyone will treat your parents better.
Maybe they are barbaric some times.
It's just for our own good.


They dont wan us to make mistakes and end up feeling sad or disappointed.
But they dunno tat letting us to fall is the best way for us to grow.


Wont get angry at them bout simple things.
Listen to them patiently.
Talk to them gently.


Because we dunno how much time are left for us to repay them.
Dun make ourselves regret.