Friday, November 16, 2007

*Story time*

Another of my silly nature is: I cant control my anger. When I am angry, dont apologise to me at that moment. If not, I'll get madder cos I will start blaming myself for being angry. Two ppl did that to me b4, Yi Tong and Hui Xin...

*Story time*

~Hui Xin's first~
Happened in my Form 3. She borrowed my bike for St John's Flag Day. After using my bike, she left it at school instead of riding it back to my house. I have to cycle to tuition on that afternoon, I need my bike. I am so so so angry... Keep scolding and grumbling... "How can she be so irresponsible?..bla bla bla..."
Half an hour later, she sent my bike back. She call her mum to bring her to school, and ride the bike
to my house, she live on a hill, as I have mentioned before.
At that moment, I felt so ashamed... Why should I be so angry to my fren? I feel so regret... so awful... Silly rite?

~Yi Tong's~
Happened this year, on Yi Chun's bday. Yi Chun's celevrating his bday beside the West Lake in Kampar... I planned to wear sleeveless... and suddenly think of Yi Tong's jacket that can suit my dress... I phoned her, hope to borrow it from her... Cos we always lend clothes to each other on occasions... Yi Tong and Hui Xin rarely buy dress cos they wear them once in the blue moon
(school dress inconsidered)... So usually I and Kei will lend them dresses for parties... We never say "No" to them and dress them up eagerly... Gals like to do so!
But, Yi Tong declined my request cause she have just washed it (its hard to wash becos there's a wire in its collar, she scared it will rust when in contact with H2O) .
I of co
s feel mad... Cos I never say No to her when she wanna borrow mine. Then, in my mind, I say I wont borrow to her too next time)... Gals are like that...
Half disappointed, half angry... She phoned me, and say she will lend it to me.
By that time I already change my dress. I start blaming myself for being bad and vain again. So stupid...

Really hate my self very much sometimes... always satisfy my lust... Never use my brain properly!

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