When I Lost The Center of My World

Ever since I know how to read, think and make decisions, he is the one that affects all my resolution. I put all his expectations as my guidelines and all his orders are my goals. Showing him my best is my responsibility. And I'd never want to disappoint him.

I forgot since when, I've rooted this kind of thoughts.
When I work, I want to work somewhere that I can stay with him.
When I have holiday, I want to work for him, keeping him in company.
When I need to apply for internship, I'll find somewhere near him so that I can accompany him.

This is the problem. Now, when he is not around anymore, I lost my direction.
When I encounter problems in my studies, and I need guidance, I really hoped that he was still here.


I've started to looking for companies for my internship. So stressed and confused.
I dont know where to choose, what to choose and how to choose.

I wanna find some place with accommodation but there were few in Ipoh or K.L.. 
If he was here, everything will be much simpler. I can continue putting my scope around him. Or even work for him. 


Missed you so much. Once again, I'm really willing to exchange anything to have you back in my life. I bet he would do anything to have you back in his life too.



Sorry, cried again when I think of you.
I will fulfill my promise. I'll take care of him and I'll make you proud. 
Love you always, Uncle.
 

Wastewater Treatment Plant Visit

As I've mentioned in the earlier posts, I have an assignment which require me and my group members to visit a waste water treatment plant of a private industry and understand how it works and what happens in the plant. 

It's soo soo sooo hard to find a proper industry and finally with some help of some friends, we found Petronas Gas Berhad. *Thanks to her, it's a wonderful company!*

First, I got the person-in-charge's (PIC) contact number and tried contacting him.. And he was soo busy and my application is so rush because I sent the letter on Sunday and I want to make the visit on Thursday. Felt soo sorry for causing them so much trouble.



We drive there (from K.T. to Paka, Dungun). Reach there and the the PIC came to guide us to their Gas Processing Plant (GPP). He was a very friendly man!

Reach there, they provide us breakfast. Oni 5 of us and they prepare a large plate of fried mee hun, large large plate of tuna sandwiches, cream puffs, fruits and keropok.. and also Teh. Owhhh.. 

After the breakfast, we listened to the simple briefing about safety and about the GPP..

We've to wear like this when we enter the site.  Personal protective equipment (PPE)

 

Like teletubies? or drain worker. But everyone that work here wear like this. They put the employees' safety and health in the very very first place.

You know, all cars here park in reverse parking style. This is to ensure that when there's any emergency,the cars can straight leave without causing difficulties.

We're not allowed to take pictures of the plant.. company policy thing...


The engineer that guide us throughout the plant is so kind. He answered all our questions and keep asking "Anymore questions?" Haha.. 

And, after the visit (around 1.30pm).. The PIC even call us stay for lunch! They even prepared lunch for us. Big pot of seafood tomyam.. fried chicken, sambal prawns, vege, and fruits and puddings!!


There are soo generous.. HAha..

Oh, because we're not allowed to take photos of the plant, we took many photos of the PPE. >.<

Toilet photos. Haha.. They have bodyshop handwash and bodywash in their VIP toilets! Haha..


Thats all for the day. 


Thanks to En. Nordin, the person-in-charge for preparing everything and treat us so well even we gave short notice. And thank you Mr. Firdaus for explaining so much.

My Wish List of 2012

My birthday is coming soon and people usually give presents on birthday.
I've already started hinting peoples around me about preparing me a birthday present..
But, buying birthday presents is a very difficult thing to do and most of the time, we buy something they dont really need or already have. ^^
So, a friend suggest me to do a wish list. 

Here is my wishlist!!

I will update this list whenever I think of something new. *winks*


1) Cute neck pillow (neck rest)

I'm always taking bus back home and to Terengganu and it takes around 7-8 hours. Means I've 7-8 hours time on bus.. My neck always ache when I reach Trg and whn I sleep on buy, my head will sway left and right. *no good, it makes me nauseas*
So, I really need one of this!
I want cute cute ones.. and not those will small small white round grains inside.. Preferably cotton or polyester.. ^^

 

2) Cute fat and short bolster

I have a rabbit Pupu here but Pupu is too slim for me to hug..

Thn I have a Cinamoroll plushie. It flattens after one semester of sleeping and hugging =(. 

Then Stickkie bought me a Cupido.. Its very wide but flat. Hard to hug.  And then,I always saw my honey hugging a fat and short green bolster and then I feel like wanting one too. Hers is a very simple one.. I like cute max ones... ^^

 

*this size* 

3) Bedsheets (single bed)

Either Doraemon or Winnie the Pooh ones ^^

 

4) Hand made cards 

I've made many for my beloved ones but I never actually get one. *sad* 

Simple handmade cards or quote cards will do. 

Ish.. Need to post it here to ask people make me one. XD

5) Handphone casing (htc Sensation XE)

It's  hand to find a casing for my phone.. =( My casing now is sooo worn out and the color fades and soo dirty. Jealous of iphone user cos there are tonnes of casing sold in the market and all of them are cute and nice and soooo adorable!

I like pastel colours casing. ^^

6) Cardigan

I like cardigans.. I have a grey one but the wools came off a little bit and then the pocket came off. >.<

Now I'm looking for a salmon color one or a yellow one..

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Actually, that are the things I can think of. 

Something I really want.

Other than that, clothes, dresses, hair ribbons or any cute things also can. 

Cute pencil cases, cute water bottles, cute note books, cute ornaments..

Everything or anything cute. Pinkish. ^^ 

Lovess..

Way Behind the Others

In the previous post I mentioned about visiting a wastewater treatment plant thing and a air quality monitoring project. 

As I've said before, I still haven get a proper factory that met the assignment requirements and thus, I cannot proceed. 
And as for the air sampling one, me and my group members worried about this and that.. scared that it might rain. And so, the sampling still cannot start. We planned to do it next weekend. Hope that no one borrowed the equipment before us.

My coursemate (I name her Sweetie) which is also my housemate and groupmate just inform me that some groups have already started their sampling sessions and done their w.w.t. plant visit. 
Why they so fast one?!

Sigh. My group's progress rate is still a constant. 
Sweetie started to stressed up and worried. I'm worried too but I can do nothing. Just act cool and stay calm so that we dont lost our direction.


Okays. Now need to prepare for the upcoming test and quizzes. 

Pray or the best.

My Semester 5

FYI, I studied Environmental Technology in University Malaysia Terengganu. 
It's located in a very rural state. Imagine no cinemas in their capital town. =_= Duh.
And the supermarkets here DO NOT sell pork or bacon. TT^TT *I wan bacon omelette* 
Okay. Still. I survived the past 4 semester safe and sound.

I thought that my previous semester (Sem 4) is the toughest because I'd Hydrology, which need us to do water samplings. 
Go to different stations, take samples every 4 hours, for a few days continuously. There are many ordeals in the process of taking samples. Snakes. Big huge large ants that bites. Super heavy rain, where you have to protect your equipments. Or stay beside the equipment for 6 hours continuously inside a small bus-stop (it have a roof but when it rains, water can enter from every direction except from the top). 




Who knows, this semester is almost the same. Or maybe worse.
till have to do sampling. But this time for air quality monitoring. And it's almost monsoon season now so it rains almost every evening. The sampling will go on for 3 days continuously and as you know, air quality monitoring means cannot do when it rains so now very headache.
 Dont know what to do. *cham* 

Another one. Waste water treatment thing. I seriously HATE that lecturer. 
He call us to find an industry with their own w.w. treatment plant. Go interview and understand what technology was used and why, how and etc. 

The problem is, there are 15 groups of us. We need to find 15 different factory. And he dont want small factories. Fk. 
We proposed a few to him, but he rejected most of it. This dont want that dont want. He thought my father is Minister or wat, I control one ar? Fk. 
Okay. me and my group mates go find industry nearby (we live near a industrial site near KT). And then, I found out the most ridiculous thing. 
We went to about 10 factories. All of them DO NOT have a w.w.t. system and you know how they manage their waste? The girl tat work in a pet food factory told me that they just discharge their waste into the drain outside of their factory. WTF?! 
Okay. My Malay friend, Fatihah brought me good news. She said she found one poultry factory. We proposed to the lecturer, he said the factory must process at least 500 chickens daily. Luckily that factory met his requirements. But, during the visit, only then we found our that the w.w.t.system is down and the factory discharge their waste into the nearby river. OMG. What kind of world is this?! 
In the end of the day, my group still cannot find a proper industry for the assignment while some other groups ady presented in class. FML. 

 I take one elective course this semester and it's the first time I had a 21 credit hour semester. 


And one more thing. My wonderful timetable. 
I study 4 days a week. 
On my Wednesday: 8-9, 10-12, 12-2, 3-5, 6-7 = altogether 8 hours on a single day. Nice. 

Mid Autumn Festival

When I was a kid, I like Mid Autumn Festivals. Because, there will be celebration, playing candles and lanterns and lots of friends and relatives will come and its a lot of fun. 

But since that year, Mid Autumn wasnt fun anymore. It's very painful to think back what happened.
Scientist says we tend to alter our memories everytime we recall it. Means the more we think of it, the more we will tend to forget. I dont think it's true because that scene couldnt be deleted no matter how hard I tried.
I still dream about him once in a while. It's almost the same thing.. he is either laughing or eating. Sometimes singing. And that moment was so precious and warming that I'd trade anything to make it come true. *wipe tears* >.<

So, since then, I just celebrate Mid Autumn with a simple dinner.. This year, I went home for dinner. To meet my loved ones. To meet grandma and also to meet the apple of my eyes.. Not Stickkie this time. He is the cute little boy that never fails to cheer me up.

The boy is going back to Singapore. *heartbroken* 
No more HinHin at home now. 

Went home 4 days 3 nights. >.< Skipped one day class.. 
Filled my 4 days 3 nights with friends and families. Not a single second wasted. 

Homesick already. TT^TT 
Any medicine can cure homesick? Because this disease is becoming more and more serious. 
I miss everything in Kampar. I missed Stickkie. I missed my mum. I missed my brothers. 





                       

I wanna blog.

I read people's blog very often and I always think that it's a good thing to do. 
I've not updated since March and it's hard to re-post back what happened at that period of time so I'll try my best to update my future here. 

Oh ya. I tried to edit my blog and then I accidentally deleted the background's html code and I cant find back the background so I simply put one up. Duh. The previous one is so much more beautiful. 
Stupid itchy hand. Always pressed the delete button.