Disappoinment

Today I'm super duper unhappy.

Annoyed by some friends.

First of all, dunno which dumb-bell go walk around spreading silly news bout me falling in love with another guy (another close fren that everyone knows, Yi Chun).

Yi Chun is one of buddies, which I can express my anger on without any hesitating.
He fetch me to school everyday.
He always forget me or leave me behind when there were other friends around.
He is a super 重色轻友 (value lust more than friendship).

They all came to me and questioned me is tat true.

The one that hurt me most is Fei and Lee. You both should know me well. Why you dun believe me?

We all have been friends for so long. You all should know what type of people am I.
Just as I said in my previous post, you all really think that I break with Lee is because of I've fell in love with other guys?
In you all's eyes simple friendship wont exist between I and other boys?
Last time say I like Sek Yen. Then now Chun. Some say I like Hwa.
I don't like any of you!!! You all are my friends.

I just settle one of my problem. Please dun get me another one so fast!


Other than the boys, the gals also make me quite disappointing.

You know, I update this blog is to let my frens that are away from me know what's happening to me. But sadly, they no longer read my blog.

Yi Tong.
During our secondary days, she always say she wont get into a relationship so fast and even she is in one, she wont forget her friends.
But now, everytime she came back to Kampar, she never tell me. I always hear it from the others that she's back. That hurts you know. She is my closest gal fren. She never finds me herself. Usually I'm the one contacting her.
I understand. She have a boyfren now, sure she cant spare so mauch time for frens. But at least let me know you're back.
Do you still remember that the tag box I made for you?

Wai Kei.
The one that I loved so much. When you tell me you are in a relationship, I feel half glad but half worrying. Glad because someone can look after you there and someone is there to care about you. Worry because there rumours bout the boy and you dont know him long, sked that the boy is not serious, worry that he may hurt you.
When you tell me that those gals in KMJ boycott you, I really cant imagine how you feel. It must be bad. You told me about this after it's over because during that time, I've just broke up with Lee. I feel so bad because I cant be with you that time.
How can those foolish gals treat you like that just becuase of those silly things.
You're busy preparing for your exam. Busy till you cant even spend a minute to meet me when you came back for your study week.

Hui Xin.
Leng lui... stil got read this blog? I remember tat after SPM, you are my only reader. Only you leave comments and messages in the tagbox. But I never see you message for a long time. Your last message is at the head of January. It's April now.
Everyday when I open my blog, I hope and hope that one of you can leave me a message. Let me know that you all are reading. But I ended up with disappointment everytime.

Cheong Fei.
You are the worst one. Only you is with me at Kampar but it's so hard to find you! Always push me to find other people. Always leave me alone!


If really no frens are reading my blog, I plan to make it private. Only for certain readers.


I understand. After separating for a year, we all have our own life, new frens. Do you all know, I am staying at home, counting the calender everyday, waiting you all to come back. Waiting you all to find me.