After receiving Faye's msg.. I sit in my room... stared at my Organic Chemistry.
Think and think whats happening.
Life is like a stage.
People entering and leaving.
The happiest moment is when everyone is on the stage playing their best performance.
But dont be sad when you're alone on the stage. Because there are people below watching you all the time. Just we're too concentrate on out role, didn notice them.
Until now, my happiest performance is during my secondary school life.
Because it's the crowdest and happiest part.
I should have think for the others too.
I'm here waiting for you all.
You all are outside. Alone, facing the society, with people you are not familiar to. Life must be tough.
Sorry for being inconsiderate.
This is life.
I cant act like a kid, expecting everyone to stay with me.
Forever living in the secondary life. No improvement.
Secondary frens. Close frens. All save in the cherished memories.
Don't worry. I wont be sad anymore. You all need mot to apologise to me when I wrote al thise emo things.
It's just because I still haven understand the fact.
Sunday, April 12, 2009
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ya, honestly..its reli tough, i'm suffocating here... and i don think you hav time to listen to wad i'm bc about la...in school, its not only bout him...a have few events to folo with and i face lots of problem... like my committee cant co-operate wit me, they don do their job and i have to folo up...and today i end up sacking her and finish all her job till 3.30am and wake up at eight to send e mails and send letter block to block..cycling. and i've to online at somewhere far fr my hostel.. tats y, i cant always be wit u and listen to you, i'm reli sorry. some night, i cant even sleep due to the events and jobs which is not in my studying field. sometimes, i reli don know y i have to torture myself with all this event, but i just know that i have to have connection with more people in order to survive here...
everyday i sleep at two to three with all my job undone and all those rubbish labs and assignments and da comtinuous test....i'm thin not because i don eat..its pressure.. when i go home, i din find u is not because i don want to, ...i'm exhausted and going back home is like a big relief. and i'm always happy to go out yum cha with u all at nite and i'm glad there's a place to rest my mind.
sometimes i reli reli hate here, everyday routine is always different, and when u think that one night you have no class and can stay at room to study and relax, there's always an urgent message that tells u to attend a meeting even after ten. sometimes, i feel worry to open da message at night coz i reli don wan to have things suddenly pop out and destroy my plan. they are giving late orders but u have to complete it immediately... i reli feel that no one can help me or accompany me like when i'm in secondary.. thats da different ba....working alone i reli...lonely..coz there's no one to carry the burden wit u. i reli hate my assistant, and serve her right for not being committed to her job, not answering my calls and not reporting to me after doing something. if can i reli wan to quit all the events where u have to work everything on ur own without guidelines or teacher's guide. everything is on our own and i have to deal with the outsiders to invite them to school. i hate it. i loss a lot a lot of credit to work an event. huh...i don know wad i'm talking anymore. but i think, next sem, i'll juz go with two events only so i can concentrate more on my own studies.
sometimes, when we go out yum cha, like last time at the chui sui zham.. i reli don wan to sms or keep calling others,,,,, but they just wont move and hand their things to you before due date and all the time i'm worrying bout lots of things, and its burdening me coz i don know if i may forget to do sth important.
guai guai and understand la, and i'll be v happy if u can support me too. you can always find me if u have problem, although i'm busy, i still can stop my work and listen to you. i reli mean so. and avi time hui xin call me, i stop all my work to tok to her. just remember to tell me whenever you face a problem and you don have to think if i'm busy or not. i'm always available for you.
and for ur information, i'm typing all this in my icis lab session coz no connection available in my hostel...hehe...
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