Is good result important?
What is the purpose of having good results?
To prove that he is good while I'm better?
Or to make us a better path to our future?
Pre and Post SPM Period
When I studied for my SPM, I think that I just spend 15-20% of my time studying. Even lesser than the time I spend on PMR.
When I got my result, I'm super overjoyed.
Because I think that I did a great job.
It's my best result slip ever.
But I'm wrong.
And I'm very very regret now.
Because I didn't study well. I didn't really tried all and everything.
I didn't study my Maths well. I dropped the differentiation and integration chapters.
My foundation for Chemistry is not good enough. *This is the subject I'm most confident in during SPM*
My Physics is shit.
My English is bullshit. Wrote the silliest essay in my life *Tomorrow*.
But at that time, I really felt proud of myself for such results.
IPTA result out. No matriculation offered.
No JPA. Not even a single offer from any institutions.
Last choice, Form 6. *Which I once swore that I wont enter*.
Form 6 Period
In Form 6, the toughest period of my life.
As I've said, my foundations and basic aren't strong enough, so, Form 6 is like hell to me.
Darlings that used to teach me in studies are not with me..
Luckily, still got an encyclopedia. (Mei Yee).
I've spend 40-50% of my time studying, revising.
Especially in my Upper 6.
I never felt so motivated or diligent before.
Full of determination of getting a good university offer.
To pursue my dreams, my ambition.
STPM passed. Result out.
The worst thing I've ever get.
2 years time.. wasted.
IPTA result out.
UMT. Environmental Technology.
This course is something close to what I'm hoping for.
I want to study something about environmental engineering.
So I thought, this is something near.
I hope that I can fulfill my dreams.
University Time
First semester passed.
Not bad. The highest pointer I get compared to the previous 2 years studies.
But my seniors told me that, my course is very far away from engineering.
I'm still not an engineer after graduate.
Means, I still have to work hard to get closer to my goal.
Second semester.
Again. Tough. Tougher.. I know this isn't the toughest.
Almost every night, I'll go to my course-mate room and study with her.
She praised me for being hard-working. ^^
First time getting such compliment.
Most people said that I'm lazy and idle.. XP
Conclusion
From my story, I found out that, without good result, I cannot choose my own future.
I cannot choose the course that I like, the university that I like.
I hope that my dumbass brother understand this and stopped his super sweet honeymoon typed lifestyle.
He got a dream.
But he over estimated his ability.
He never have lucks in government exams.
Thus, he should have worked harder.
Since my uncle left us, I felt that it is my responsibility to look after him.
I have to keep an eye on him so that he wont get too far away from his original path.
No one can help you if you dont work hard yourself.