Is good results that important?

Is good result important?

What is the purpose of having good results?

  

To prove that he is good while I'm better?

Or to make us a better path to our future?

Pre and Post SPM Period

When I studied for my SPM, I think that I just spend 15-20% of my time studying. Even lesser than the time I spend on PMR.

When I got my result, I'm super overjoyed. 

Because I think that I did a great job.

It's my best result slip ever.

But I'm wrong. 

And I'm very very regret now.

Because I didn't study well. I didn't really tried all and everything. 

I didn't study my Maths well. I dropped the differentiation and integration chapters.

My foundation for Chemistry is not good enough. *This is  the subject I'm most confident in during SPM*

My Physics is shit.

My English is bullshit. Wrote the silliest essay in my life *Tomorrow*.

But at that time, I really felt proud of myself for such results.

IPTA result out. No matriculation offered.

No JPA. Not even a single offer from any institutions.

Last choice, Form 6. *Which I once swore that I wont enter*.

Form 6 Period

In Form 6, the toughest period of my life.

As I've said, my foundations and basic aren't strong enough, so, Form 6 is like hell to me.

Darlings that used to teach me in studies are not with me..

Luckily, still got an encyclopedia. (Mei Yee).

I've spend 40-50% of my time studying, revising. 

Especially in my Upper 6.

I never felt so motivated or diligent before.

Full of determination of getting a good university offer.

To pursue my dreams, my ambition.

STPM passed. Result out.

The worst thing I've ever get.

2 years time.. wasted.

IPTA result out. 

UMT. Environmental Technology.

This course is something close to what I'm hoping for.

I want to study something about environmental engineering.

So I thought, this is something near. 

I hope that I can fulfill my dreams.

University Time

First semester passed.

Not bad. The highest pointer I get compared to the previous 2 years studies. 

But my seniors told me that, my course is very far away from engineering.

I'm still not an engineer after graduate.

Means, I still have to work hard to get closer to my goal.

Second semester.

Again. Tough. Tougher.. I know this isn't the toughest.

Almost every night, I'll go to my course-mate room and study with her.

She praised me for being hard-working. ^^

First time getting such compliment.

Most people said that I'm lazy and idle.. XP

Conclusion

From my story, I found out that, without good result, I cannot choose my own future.

I cannot choose the course that I like, the university that I like.

I hope that my dumbass brother understand this and stopped his super sweet honeymoon typed lifestyle.

He got a dream. 

But he over estimated his ability.

He never have lucks in government exams.

Thus, he should have worked harder.

Since my uncle left us, I felt that it is my responsibility to look after him. 

I have to keep an eye on him so that he wont get too far away from his original path.

No one can help you if you dont work hard yourself.