Lost and Found

Stickkie bought me a bangle last Valentine.. and I lost it few months after that.

Felt so bad for losing it because it wasn't the first time losing things he gave me.

Keep blaming myself for being so careless and clumsy..

On the other hand, Stickkie didnt scold me.. He said I didn lost it in purpose..

At that time, I was thinking that if he lost things that I gave him, sure die hard.

*cruel*

But he never lost anything that I gave him.. 

He just forget things.. never lost things..

No.. forget is also one kind of losing things.

And then, just as I said in the previous post.. I found that bangle.

Hmm.. Not I found.. the part-time maid found it and gave it to my mum and mum gave it back to me.

Once again, I have this bangle.

This time, I'm much more careful. I check it's existence all the time.. 

When I shake my hands, I'll check is it there..

When I hold something, I'll check is it there..

When something touch my hand, or pressed on the hand, I'll check is it there..

Even when I'm walking, I will unwittingly hold the bangle for a while to make sure it is there..

It is because that I've lost it for once and I dont want to lose it again.

I'll do anything to ensure that I'll always have it.

This incident can be a metaphor for many things.

Just like relationships.

I've lost it for once and I dont want to lose it again.

So, this time, I;ve tried harder to maintain it.

I'm trying to change my bad habits.

Now, I started to tolerate.

Sleeping overtime is ok.

Going out with friends is ok.

Staying outside after midnight is ok.

Having fun when I'm not around is ok. 

*it used to be not ok, I'll feel terribly miserable when he is having fun while I was stuck in this noob dorm*

Maybe you cant feel my hard work and maybe it's nothing to you because you never complaint about this kind of problems.. 

Or I should say you seldom complaint about my misdeeds or problems.

Lol.. started to emo =_=

Emo ends.

Back to lost and found.

So, my point is, I lost something once, so when I found it back, I'll put more effort to maintain the ownership of that thing,

Lol. what a lame sentence I've just wrote. 

Forgive me.

Things cannot always belongs to us.

If we dont look after it with love and care, it will slips away silently without notification.

Till that time, dont regret for not doing your best to retain it.