Crisis? Oh god! My prophecy!

My research partner just drop me a sad news. Me and him, call him Brother Sam, planned to apply for the myphd scholarship after our graduation. This scholarship will cover all our tuition fees throughout the postgraduate course duration with monthly allowance of RM2300. With this scholarship, we never bother about anything and just think of study study and study. Then, the scholarship changed the terms and now we cannot apply anymore.
Can things be any worse?

And while typing the title for this post, I recalled the prophecy that I get from the prayers in a temple in Hong Kong. I asked whether I can grad my PhD without much barriers or obstacles. The answer I got says tat "I may lose something and I may be very sad, but in the end, everything will works out accordingly."
Oh please, I cannot handle suprises and shocks.

God help me.

Reviving my blog

Okay. I feel like reviving my blog. I always have this feeling and this determination and motivated push but it usually doesn't last long. I hope that this time lasts. Cos I am bored and I need some place to spill my shitty thoughts.

Just like tonight.

I live in a small house in a small residential area in Kuala Terengganu. 3 rooms, one for the landlady, yes, she rented the house and re-rent one of the rooms to me. I used to share the room with my beloved coursemate but she graduated and left. So it's just me now. I will post about my beautiful room some other day.

Then.

A lady just moved in and she is a mother of two kids, and she got transferred to Terengganu and she missed her kids so much and have a lot of free time thus she make use of her free time doing gardening. That brings no harm and my landlady is so pleased cos she saved a lot from hiring gardening for weeding and trimmings. BUT. SHE BURN THE HORTICULTURAL WASTE EVERY DAMN TIME AFTER THE GARDENING. FML.

I complained to my landlady and she said although open burning is not good for the environment, but the smokes and fires is beneficial. It removes pest, scares away mosquitoes and ants. FML. I can't even breathe now . Then she said my problem may be due to my dusty bedsheets and pillows and mats. Then I told her I just change and washed my bedsheets 4 days ago. And I sun-dried my pillows and mattress also. Then she suggest other nonsense and I stop listening.

And my stupid nose is clog and I can hardly breathe, since sunset when that hard-working lady burnt the trash till now.

How ironic. She wished me good night.

Back to December

When can I stop feeling sad when I think about you?

It's Christmas Eve. And it makes me think of you again. So I look through the old photos. I didn realised you've grown old and there are more and more white hairs on your head..

You're a big tree, holding us together.Giving us support. Never endlessly caring for us, worrying us.


I remember, there's once, Uncle Micheal ask me, what animal resembles himself, I said rooster. Because at time time, I think rooster is nice and not scary and easy to find, easy to be with. This is just like Uncle Micheal. Always willing to teach me new things, fascinates me and most important, play with me.

Then he ask again, what animal resembles Uncle Yim. I'm whispered "bulldog". This is because, Uncle Yim is large and fierce and makes me trembles. It's like he can simple crash me without effort.  Whenever he is around, I'll be very stiff. I dont understand why I'm so afraid of him that time. I trembles and my hearts almost stop whenever I show him my report card from school. I tried to avoid him in all means at home, scared that he will give me extra revisions, dictations and assignments.

And this man became one of the most important in my life that I feel stupid for being scared of him, feeling silly for avoiding him at home. I wished I could have more time to be with him now.


Another long post about you again.
How I wished I could go back to the December, when you're still around.

Love you, and hope that you'll watch over me, and him and her.

About the Doom's Day

Most of the people is mentioning and discussing bout the Doom's Day, which is predicted to fall on 21st December.

They says, the world will be in total blackout for 3 whole days due to the alignment of the universe..  Donno what shifting from 3-D to Zero-D and go to 4-D thing. =_=

Seriously, I rather you swept us all than have 3 day of darkness.

Imagine staying in Kuala Terengganu, which is the monsoon season now, we dont need 3 days of total darkness to increase our misery. Other than that, I have no time for 3 days break. The week of these total blackout suppose to be my study week and I have 3 damn Test 2 and 1 presentation. FML.

I dont know why my Tests seems endless. I have Tests every week. If I dont, means that week have presentations.


And people should be spending time doing things they like and being with their loved ones, and for us, who are studying away from home, this is the worse form of death.
We died in the state of
- having no nice food for the previous month (since mid-sem break, worse for those who didn go home during that time)
- having no relatives with us other than our beloved housemates and coursemates
- very cold or soaked, due to the non-stop rain here
- not even sleeping on a comfortable bed (we bought cheap mattress here)
- not even wearing one of your favourite garments
- not even have the chance to do something we like
- and lastly, not even have the chance to see our beloved one for the last time

If I believe that the doom's day is coming and I spend my time doing things I like, then the dooms day please come. If not, I will have another dooms day coming. Spent 3 happy day and then face the consequences of not doing revisions.


And finally,my conclusion is, I dont believe about Doom's Day. If it come, better kill me and all those cockroaches all together. So that cockroach will finally extinct.

My Wide Range of Interest

I am practically interested in everything except doing vigorous activities such as sports and excercise.
So as outdoor activities like hiking, camping, or even under the sun.

Other than that, anything, simply everything can catch my interest.

I can read and read and forget my meals.
And imagine I reach the level that my mum commented "READING AGAIN? CAN YOU PUT DOWN THAT BOOK?"
Haha.. usually parents will be very happy to see their children reading.. dunno why she like tat one. Ish.

Dramas. 
I layan everything. Means I watch everything. 
Korean. Hong Kong. Taiwan. China. English. Never started tamil yet. >.<

Animations. 
OMG. Super addicted and I can watch and re-watch them and still can laugh one.
Recommendations: ONE PIECE.
(I have 5 pending tests now and I still got time to promote One Piece, proves that I'm super die hard fans)
First, I watch FairyTail.. this kind of animations is those adventurous and full of warming friendship type. At that time, only 80++ episodes out, and after I finished them, I felt so sad. =( Parting with Natsu and Grey Fullbuster.. then my friend copied OP to me and OMG. *beams*
Best animation. And the best of the best is, it is long and you wont feel sad because you know it wont end here. 
You know the feeling when you read a book and it comes to the ending you felt so sad and feel like you dont want to leave..


Knitting. Cooking. Arts and Crafts.
I did all of thing in my free time. ^^


And latest interest is, I read manga too.