Long Silence Big Difference

Decided to revived this blog after a long long pause.. 

I thought of quitting this blog but it had become my secret base for saving my cherished memories and thus, I will continue keeping it. 

I didnt even post a review on my last year's memories... 

I realised that, when people grows older, they tends to change.. Their taste of fashion, their favourite colours or food.. Their usual characteristics.. 

I changed a lot too.

I used to be fond of chocolates.. but now, I think that they are too sweet. 

One thing, coffee is still bitter to me.

Last time, I cannot survived without people talking to me.. but now, I cant stay in my room for more than 20 hours a day.. and speak less than 10 sentences to people around me. 

Even in my room, I can leave my phone aside and do my own things.. and my things never ends.

I surf net.. play games.. watch animation and movies and dramas.. sleep.. daydream.. and then.. one day passed.

This is my life in Terengganu. 

My real life begins when I'm back home.

I talked and played and talked.. and when I'm at home, I can survived one whole week without computer or internet. 

At Kampar, eating a bowl of noodles that cost me RM20 is not a big deal.. but here.. a plate of RM3 rice makes me complain "Wah, what happened ar?! So expensive today!".

And friends. 

I missed OGG. Every single one in OGG.

Being with them, I can be the real me. I need not to please anyone, or pretend to be nice.

I can shout and yell and pinch and punch. 

I love them.

This friendship is the thing that never change.

No matter how long time have passed, when we are together, we are still the us.. 

We teased and we laughed. 

We quarreled and we forget.

We enjoyed the time together and it remains in out heart forever.

Until now, we still remember the funny memories from our secondary school.

And everytime we mentioned about it, we can never stop laughing. Even when we'd laughed about it dozens times ago.

Friends.

My Stickkie.

We'd been through a lot. And now, you're a part of my life.

We need not to talk. And we know that we are there.

Things have become so simple and so normal for us and sometimes we neglected each other.

We quarreled and we continue going. 

We give each other support and listen to each others' sorrows.

I hope that this wont change. 

Family.

My family is full of problems and gossips. 

Because it's a big family.

They fight and complaint, but they can never be apart. The three sisters.

They grumbled and teased.. but they understand each other. The big tree of my house.

My family may not be rich, but my dad never failed to give us what we want.

My mum is fierce and super nagger.. but she will always prepare all the best for us. From food to clothing.. everything is ready.

The is fair, they gave you something, they will take back something in return.

So, even though each of us have our own short coming, we tolerate and compromise. 

Me myself.

There are a few things that I want myself to learn.

Never talk when I'm angry.

Cool down before I speak.

Work harder and never take things for granted.

I want to be someone that makes you feel proud. And my each and every day is a gift, blessed by you.

My Everyday

It'd been a long time since I last posted about my feelings and opinions..

Woke up erm.. not early but not late either and suddenly this thoughts pass by my mind and I feel like sharing it.. ^.^

I think that most of you are facing stress in life right?

For students, they stressed bout studies and assignments.. 

For universities students, more terror.. got pop quiz and stupid test 1 and test 2.. >.<

(One semester only lasted for 4.5 months and they expect us to swallow in 6 subjects and in between, there are assignments, presentations, quizzes, tests and finals.. Oh.. some have reports weekly.)

For those who are working.. they worried about money and their undone work..

Sigh.. who invented stress?

I do have stress. 

Yesterday, my beautiful lecturer told me that there are 6 weeks of lectures left and she still got 3 chapters haven covered, and 2 tests, and 1 quiz. WTF. 

One week we only got 3 hours..

3 x 6 = 18 hours.. How to do so much? And I still have other subjects!!

At that moment.. stress stuffed up my mind.

I start panicking and worrying.

But it didn last long. Went home quickly studied my notes.. and after eating my lunch, all stress gone. ^.^

People around me are stressing themselves everyday.

I know they didnt want it, but they cant help it.

I dare say that lived my life to the fullest everyday.

They are interesting things happening to me everyday.

Some are bad, some funny, some amusing.. and that makes my day.

*Simple things are the best, because they can bring the purest laughter out of our soul*

I have lots to be worried about, but I can easily distract myself. 

I know I have lots of undone work, unrevised notes, incomplete assignments, but I still can live happily.

I studied when I want to. I watch drama or anime when I liked. I talk and talk and talk. I eat and sleep whenever I can. I think of my loved ones and happy things.

These things make stress dare not to come near me. ^.^

Eat and sleep can also prevent stress or shoo them away!

Be contented while aiming for the better ones.

I want to score higher, but I'm happy with what I have.

I'll do better if I can, but if there's no improvement after I've tried, means I'm not qualified yet..

Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone.

Do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come.

Live in the present, and make it so beautiful, that it will be worth remembering.

Immatured

Sometimes, childish people who tries to be matured or thoughtful, makes me feels sick.

They thought that having this kind of plannings or thoughts makes them matured but actually, it makes them more childish.

And, the most annoying part is, when they try to show you how great they are, but in fact, it's just exposing their naive side. 

I tried to let them understand but it seems like pouring water to the ocean. Makes no difference.

They never realize how grateful they should be.

Is good results that important?

Is good result important?

What is the purpose of having good results?

  

To prove that he is good while I'm better?

Or to make us a better path to our future?

Pre and Post SPM Period

When I studied for my SPM, I think that I just spend 15-20% of my time studying. Even lesser than the time I spend on PMR.

When I got my result, I'm super overjoyed. 

Because I think that I did a great job.

It's my best result slip ever.

But I'm wrong. 

And I'm very very regret now.

Because I didn't study well. I didn't really tried all and everything. 

I didn't study my Maths well. I dropped the differentiation and integration chapters.

My foundation for Chemistry is not good enough. *This is  the subject I'm most confident in during SPM*

My Physics is shit.

My English is bullshit. Wrote the silliest essay in my life *Tomorrow*.

But at that time, I really felt proud of myself for such results.

IPTA result out. No matriculation offered.

No JPA. Not even a single offer from any institutions.

Last choice, Form 6. *Which I once swore that I wont enter*.

Form 6 Period

In Form 6, the toughest period of my life.

As I've said, my foundations and basic aren't strong enough, so, Form 6 is like hell to me.

Darlings that used to teach me in studies are not with me..

Luckily, still got an encyclopedia. (Mei Yee).

I've spend 40-50% of my time studying, revising. 

Especially in my Upper 6.

I never felt so motivated or diligent before.

Full of determination of getting a good university offer.

To pursue my dreams, my ambition.

STPM passed. Result out.

The worst thing I've ever get.

2 years time.. wasted.

IPTA result out. 

UMT. Environmental Technology.

This course is something close to what I'm hoping for.

I want to study something about environmental engineering.

So I thought, this is something near. 

I hope that I can fulfill my dreams.

University Time

First semester passed.

Not bad. The highest pointer I get compared to the previous 2 years studies. 

But my seniors told me that, my course is very far away from engineering.

I'm still not an engineer after graduate.

Means, I still have to work hard to get closer to my goal.

Second semester.

Again. Tough. Tougher.. I know this isn't the toughest.

Almost every night, I'll go to my course-mate room and study with her.

She praised me for being hard-working. ^^

First time getting such compliment.

Most people said that I'm lazy and idle.. XP

Conclusion

From my story, I found out that, without good result, I cannot choose my own future.

I cannot choose the course that I like, the university that I like.

I hope that my dumbass brother understand this and stopped his super sweet honeymoon typed lifestyle.

He got a dream. 

But he over estimated his ability.

He never have lucks in government exams.

Thus, he should have worked harder.

Since my uncle left us, I felt that it is my responsibility to look after him. 

I have to keep an eye on him so that he wont get too far away from his original path.

No one can help you if you dont work hard yourself.

    

Women's Greatest Power @ Love

When a women loves you, she can sacrifice everything for you..
She can forgive all of your mistakes and wrongdoings..

No matter how many lies you've told.. or how people around her objected their relationship, she can still be tough to continue loving you..

Exp: A mum's love for her daughter

A ma'am walk all the way from my housing area to school to fetch her daughter after school and then walk back to the bus station to take bus back home.

Distance from her house to the school : roughly around 2km

The weather outside is super hot.. with high UV radiations... 

Mums in Kampar are very loving I think..

During lunchtime, they will be very busy.. They rushed back home to prepare lunch and then send it to school.. bring fans and stools.. Feed their children.. wipe their sweaty faces... check their homework with the classmates' parents to ensure that their child have mark them down correctly..

They wait till the school bell rings, only then, they bid goodbye..

Out of ideas to continue.. XP Mum cooked bak kut teh tonight.. Yummy! Byes...

幸福与我

幸福与我并不远。\(≧▽≦)/



对我而言，幸福是

很多很多的 努力 和 爱心 所换来的 温暖 和 关心。

金钱是买不到的。


幸福不是必然的
所以我们要珍惜我们现在拥有的



如果觉得自己不幸福，不快乐

那就要努力做好自己的本分，让自己开心。

知足常乐！

让身边所有人开心
就是等于让自己幸福。


O(∩_∩)o~ 要幸福并不难！

简简单单和朋友们吃顿饭。。。
轻轻松松和家人聊聊天。。。
无聊没事做就看看电视。。。
能够做到这些，就是幸福的。


世界上，还有很多人连这些小事都做不到哦。

The Me Now

Okays... after the holiday... now back to the usual me.

Study.. sleep... watch tv... eat...

This is what I did everyday.

Time seems to pass so fast.
Sleep and wake up... time passes... and deadline coming nearer and nearer.
And yet, I'm still not aware of it.

In my opinion... I think I have never improved before.




For example, my English.
I never improved it since Form 3. So that's my language sucks.
People blog with beautiful language... nice explanation that make you feel like you're really experiencing the same thing...
Mine? =_= full of this >> =_= sign and loads of broken English plus rojak language.
I cant help it... this is my language style.
Who can help me improve my English.. If I continue using this kind of way to speak English, I'll be a clown when I enter university.



Now is about my studies.
I had been slacking for a long long while.
It's exam season for me now. And yet, I'm still hanging out with my darlings...
blogging.. shopping... and spending...
Have you experienced before
Looking at the exam paper, staring it it.. with your mind all blank. Dunno what is it asking about.
I tried before.
But luckily, my common sense help me a lot. =_= Yeah, answering my Bio paper with common knowledge.
Actually I'm not the only one doing so for the Bio paper. We all consider the questions "low standard" because, we all don't know.
In this world, only tat weirdo can set those questions.



Third topic of discussion. Time-Waiting

Punctual : Tougher than running 1km under the hot sun.
When I says we meet at 8am, means we all will see each other at 8am, not start preparing at 8am.
This is Malaysian culture. Being late.
The never look at the time.
8am means 8.30am.. or maybe later.
When they says "I'm on the way", it actually means that "I just get out of my house" or "I just moved my fatty ass off my chair".
I don't like waiting.

Ps: I wrote this is not to criticise somebody. Just let you all know that this is a serious matter.
Just imagine if we all are not punctual when we're working nex time.. So bad...

Enuff for today.
Continue nex time.

Pride & Prejudice

Pride = "the love of one's own excellence"


Prejudice = prejudgment: making a decision about, before becoming aware of the relevant facts of, a case or event




Everyone have pride... just some people show them out, some kept it inside themselves.


For me, it depends.
For example, when I complete a Maths qns myself, without help, I'll praise myself for the hard work. This makes me feel good. A feeling of satisfaction.


Prejudice. First impression is very important and it is a major cause of prejudice.


For example, you show people how bad your manners is during your first acquaintance. The person will assume that you're always like that. Soon after, it'll be hard for them to change their opinions towards your attitude. Prejudice at you.


I admit that I have prejudice towards a few people.
And I never hide my feeling. When I dislike, I wont pretend that I like. I wont make myself like a clown, hiding my true emotions, just to act that I'm not angry.


When I have prejudice towards you, I'll treat you differently. Although you doing something normal, I'll find a way to criticize you. I'll argue bout everything you say. Disagree all your opinions.
Yeah, I admit that I'm bad, vain.


That's one person in my class that I really feel hard to be with. Everything she did seems like an offence to me.
Many people asked me before. Why are you so angry with her.
I don't know why also.
She makes me raise my temper.

my pride lead me to your prejudice

Be yourself.
Nothing wrong to have pride.

"click to enlarge"

wrote it long time ago...

lazy to retype... XP

耳听三分假，眼见未为真。
有时候闭上眼睛，用心去看可能看得更加清楚。






When we sees someone, we can just see the outer appearance... but not their heart..
We dunno what they think.




Not everyone we met will treat us sincerely.

****

看见他们幸福的在一起，可是他是真的爱她吗？
看见他们嬉皮笑脸的一起玩笑，他们是真的开心吗？






Sigh... many social problems in the society.
But luckily, I still haven met this kind of problems.




I was blessed with many good frens.

Random

You know, Its funny to call post urself name as Fat Gal, Ugly Gal, Lonely Boy, Sad Guy or Stupid Gal in the f'ster or watever profile.




If you really think you're that ugly, you wont upload dozens of your photos on it la...
What for? To frighten people offline?






I think its a trend... to discriminate urself...






Erm... I admit that I also always say that I'm fat (only to my close fren and my nub nub)...
Just to 撒嬌 to them only... no other meaning..






But to strangers, what for I tell you bout this.




MAybe its a way to attracts attention.
Or being humble? ^__^






Many people say they are stupid.
There are no stupid people. Maybe suffering from dyslexia..
If you are hard working enuff, you wont be stupid.






I'm lazy. Very lazy. I'm not stupid.

My Beautiful World

The world is no longer perfect. Its not the world I used to live in.
Disaster happens. Ruining people harmonious life.
SzeChuan's earthquake... took away so many people's hope... took away their precious family members... took away their properties.
Hurricane, cyclone... destroying our world.
I'm just a simple "homosapiens"... dunno what can I do to help.
Just do what I shud do and spend my life to the fullest. Achieve my goal and fulfill my hope. Dont waste my life. There are so many people that hope to survive, hope to pursue their dream but they never have the chance. They never have the chance to reject, just sacrifice like that. I'm so fortunate to live till now, sitting here in front of the pc's screen and enjoy my life... I should not waste the chance that God gave me.
Human is so feeble. Death is just a thing that happens everyday.

Friday, May 24 2008

People say, if you love someone, you'll love who he originally is. you wont ask him to change. You'll like all his good points and also his bad ones.
If you want him to change, does it means you actually dont like him?

She said she wanna make him change, but he doesnt like to be controlled. If their relationship continues to be like that, it'll be a tragedy... both will get hurt. Or maybe they cant even be friends anymore. So, before anything turns bad, she choose to give him up. Let him be what he likes to be.

Are you a fair person?

The world is unfair... We usually cant get the things we want... and get the things we never asked for.


Different people treated us differently.
They are like that. Biased. But we cant help it. Everyone is selfish. They just can see their goal and walk towards it, and neglected the others. They never thought of the others. They just cared about the one they valued. Never noticed the others.
If everyone fuss about this, then they'll be no harmony.
There must be someone to sacrifice.


Before you do something, have you every think about the others?
Many of you just wanna protect your loved ones, but when you protect him/her, have you cared about the other's feeling? Dont be too over at times. People will hide away from you.


One must be rational in making decisons.

In handling matters, let ur mind influence ur heart...
In dealing with ppl, let ur heart influence ur mind...

Fair and justice...
Never betray your self belief to help the others.

I'm living in a unfair country, unfair society with unfair people. Because I'm not of your kind. Because of ...

*HAve you ever... *

Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had...
Which one will make you feel regret?

Human have too many things to worry about...

Sometimes, you have to prefer not to confess you love just because you're afraid that you'll lose the things you already have with that person. I have many friends like that...

Love is love... many of you denied it when you fell in love. You cant lie to your own heart because they works automatically. You'll miss the one you loved without reminding you to do so.
You deny because you afraid the one you loved dont love you... but you never ask him/her, how can you just make judgement yourself?

Have you ever wanted to love someone with all your might, but that person was too afraid to let you?
I have.
The feeling is tiring, disappointed and you'll just end up being a fool. He'll never be there whenever I wanted him to be.
Nevermind. I wont look back anymore. Its not worth waiting for a person that is not willing to wait for you.
Learn to be smarter.

You have made a difference in my life.

I would never let the same things happen again.

On a "NO LOVE" mode now.

What is Future?

Future? I hate to think about it...
Life is now long... why think so much? As long as you are happy now, as long as you wont feel regret in the future...
I wish I can return to the past... but I cant... I just can continue walking to the future...
In the past... I have you all with me... never think of separating... never thought of losing each other... but because we all wanna pursue our future... we have to sacrifice...
Kei.. she wanna earn more money to further her studies... so we separated... Never saw her for a long time... How is she now? What she look like? I scared I'll soon forget...
Ten years later, are we still friends?
Fifty years later... will we still sitting together and talk about life?
This is all future...

Will you still remember who is Fong Si Yuen (Sherry) after 50 years?

*Stupid Human*

Human never know how to treasure things when they have it...
They'll just keep seeking things that are beyond their capability.
Why are they so stupid?
When they did this... they never realise they're hurting themselves and the others.
Foolish... silly...
They just keep chasing the things in front of them and never spare some time to stop and take a look behind...
We shud learn to appreciate things in front of us... Never give ourselves chances to feel regret...
I wont be stupid anymore...
I wont try to get things out of my capability anymore...
I'll treasure all the things I have... Really!

*Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus*

By John Gray...
Its a nice book... very amazing book... can really learn a lot from it... very useful.
Thought you many do's and dont's...


Gals, have you even wonder why boys like football?
I dont like football but I dont hate it... just dont understand why they like it.
And why boys dont like shopping? And they'll stop us from shopping...
For example, when I saw some cute or nice thing in a shop, I'll eventually enter the shop and take a look at it. The boys will pull me out and say " Se, she wanna get in again"...
People display things in their shop is for us to see la...
And why boys wont be attracted by cute things such as dolls, teddies and small toys? Why gals will?
This is the difference between boys and gals.
But of course there are some gals that liked footballs and boys that liked shoppings...

*Buy Wat For Him?*

You know, buying presents for gals are much easier then for boys...
For gals like Wai Kei, you can buy her a teddy bear, a giant lollipop, a watch or anything cute...
For gals that are not "kawaii" type, you can buy her posters, mugs... For example Yi Tong, she preferred Japanese animation's posters or anything with a picture of the animations... So easy...
But when a gal wanna buy a present for a boy, she'll need to break her head to find out what to buy...
Every year when some of our 'boy' friends bday, both of us with stand inside the shop and search up and down to look for a suitable present. And we usually end up buying a mug... =.=
And for some "special" boys, we'll think much harder....
Chilli: I wanna buy something tat he can bring along with him whenever he go out.
Apple: Buy shoes lor...
Chilli: Dun wan la. Buy shoes for him, you scared he wont run away ar?
Apple: Then what you want?
Chilli: I wanna buy him a wallet... and I'll make him to promise me to bring it with him always.
So, Chilli bought a wallet for her friend...
After a long time...
Chilli: I think buy shoes is better. One may forget to bring his wallet when he go out but he cant go out without wearing his shoes rite?
Apple: Haha... see, I told you my choice is better...


Dear readers, have any suggestion on buying wat present for boys? Leave me a comment so I nid not to think so hard this year...

The Irresponsible Guy!

Anyone read Sunday's Star? I bet Yi Tong read it... Thelma's part...
Tat guy, I really wanna slap him.
"Strongly feels tat we're fated together!" Nonsense... Wanna keep on theier relationship (means continue sms-ing, chatting and having sex in hotel)... Then how bout his wife and her husband?
This guy also accused tat its common to betray their spouses in today's society!
How can he say thing like tat!
If I'm Thelma, I will ask him
1) Why you proposed to ur wife?
2) Why you marry ur wife?
3) Still remember how u met ur wife?
How old is he? Already in the mid-forties (so as the woman)... aiyo!!!!!