Friday, February 17, 2017
My Typical Weekend At Tgg
I woke up and went for groceries (going to make chicken soup today).
I cleaned the toilet, do the laundries, mop my room, tidied my desk and everything is sparkling clean now. *satisfaction*
I even tried to make some chawanmushi. I've been looking for the chawanmushi cups for so long cos Fatty likes chawanmushi. And finally, got them from Daiso last week.
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Monday, January 11, 2016
Future Plans With Someone Other Than Yourself?
Friday, December 18, 2015
The no the worst. It's just going to get worse.
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Starting to Stress Out?
I woke up and my brain ran full turbo in panicked and depression. Unfinished tasks pop-up one by one and I start freaking out. I am not sure whether I am on track or lost in mid-way with my research, with my PhD. I got a friend studying with me and he finished his chapter 1, 2 and 3 already. And he is like halfway finished. He attended 3 conferences, wrote 4 journal papers.
Tuesday, April 14, 2015
Happy New Year to the Bangladeshi
A Bangladeshi friend just told me today is the first day of the new year for them and wished me Happy New Year.
The first thought I had after the well wishing is that how sad that so many of the workers have to stay overseas working and unable to reconcile with their family on this big day.
People are usually stereotypical. They saw these Bangladeshi or Pakistanis or any labourers, they will straightaway link them with crime. I have a perfect example. I got this university friend, not much of a friend, an acquaintance. We walked pass some construction workers in the university. Her reaction is dodge away and then she said "it's so dangerous to let them roam around the university compound freely, shouldn't they just stay in the construction area?"
Fuck you bitch, you thought you so pretty the man cant control himself and come rape you? Without them who will build your damn stadium and lecture rooms?
I really hate these people. Do you think they will come working here for you day and night non stop without holidays, far away from home, cannot meet their family, their parents, missing the most important part of their kid's life IF THEY HAVE A CHOICE. Do you know how many people depended on them for food?
Not everyone are born in privilege, can't learn the so atas English like you. Not because they don't want, it's just that they never had the chance.
Sorry I got carried away. So, if anyone chance upon my post today, please wish those hardworking breadwinner a happy New year.
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
I think of you when I drink this.
I am bad in remembering name and faces. Cannot seems to connect them.
But I remember moments.Those precious little cherished thoughts.
Today, I would like to share my cherished thoughts about drinks.
Have you heard of Mango Gina?
Long time ago, he brought me, my brother, my cousin and two of my childhood buddies for a road trip, we all still kids =) . We stopped by in the mid-way for drinks. We ordered a can of soya bean each and decided to race each other to finish the drink. It's dumb. I forgot who won or who was the last but I remember the laughters and the joy. It's one of the most precious memory I had with him.
Okay, why Mango Gina? Haha.
After we went home, we all race again and this time with Mango Gina. Soya bean is quite common so whenever I thought of the 5 of us with him, I thought of Mango Gina. Or vice versa.
Guiness Stout.
We called it "black dog beer". Whenever I saw this, I think of you, my sweetest grandpa. When I was a kid, you brought us out for supper everytime we visited you. And you will order a bottle of this and drink it with ice. Just like all kids, we love ice. You will let us sip and gulp in your glass to get the ice..
Coca-cola
I drink this all the time and quite frequently. So not everytime I drink I thought of you, but when I thought of you, I will think of coke.A long distant memory. You have become a stranger to me now but then, you are once someone very dear to me.
Lastly, Bandung Soda/ Bandung Ice.
I never like this drink and I used to scold my bro for drinking this "dye" water. And I dunno since when I start falling in love with this drink and I drink it almost everyday now. Is it because of the dinner at Tappers we ordered this? Or the supper at the malay stall? I don't know when this fondness starts exactly but then whenever I drink this, I will think of you, my noob fatty. And I missed you so much. Truly.
Friday, February 27, 2015
Online Shopping
There are some awesome shops that provide the best customer service. Some are so efficient that you can hardly believe. Some are so fucking annoying that I wrote a long fb post to complain about them.
Chinese New Year 2015
As we grow older CNY is just an reason for everyone to come home, to meet up. And this festive season grows duller and duller year by year. When I was a kid, I would be ecstatic for CNY. Mum will buy me lots of new clothes. We stayed up all night on the CNY eve to "守岁" and then wished our parents Happy Chinese New Year. In the morning of the first day of CNY, we will go back to my grandma's house and eat breakfast together (rice and various dishes). Grandma says if we eat fully on the first meal, we will eat fully for the rest of the year.
The rest of the day, we will be gambling, playing fireworks, pop-pop, taking ang paus and going here and there visiting relatives.
The second day is always my favourite because it's the day for us to go to the mum's side. Aunties and uncles from the mum's side will come home, along with my favourite cousins.
My house will organise the annual open-house on the second day. Mum and dad will cook many good food and everyone are welcome to eat!
This year, 2015.
Many relatives didn't come back, I don't know why. And my favourite cousin, she never came back since he left and I can barely see her once a year.
But then, my OGG friends all came back. It's a consolation. =)
\Thats all!!! So long~
Saturday, February 7, 2015
Changes in Me
I think I've changed. Maybe in the aspects of taste or music, behavior wise, I think I am still that awful witch, same as ever.
Okay, I will list out some facts about me, and one day in future, I will review back and see did anything changed.
- I don't drink coffee. Won't drink. Can't drink. I prefer tea, with sugar and milk.
- I like spaghetti.
- You know vegetables, they come with stems and leaves. For most veges, I only eat the stem. Only certain veges I eat the leaves. Weird right?
- Other than eat and sleep, reading novel (particularly historical romance) is one of the must for my daily routine. I read before I sleep, and after I wake (to reboot my brain).
- I like re-reading and re-watching. I lost count how many times I re-watch Iron Man and re-read Julia Quinn's novels.
- I cannot tolerate stupidness. I am short-tempered. I often lose control and regret afterwards.
Let me elaborate a bit in Point No. 6. I cannot tolerate stupidness because when god created me, he totally forgotten patience and temperance. If I care for you, my tolerance limit will stretch wider, but if you are just a normal acquantainces, please don't blame me. I regret it when I cannot control my wrath and offended or hurt you.
Last time I used to love chocolates. But now, I think it's too sweet. Dark chocolate is too bitter. So I maintain minimum intake. Ice creams too.
Sunday, February 1, 2015
Multi-tasking mode doesn't exist in me.
I mean the list of projects or paper on-going.
- A proposal for Indoor Air Quality Monitoring
- Flood Forensic for Kelantan
- A paper on Long Term PM10 Trend
- A paper on Ozone vs Temperature
- My Literature Review (which can be divided into chemical compositions, modelling, climate, sources, effects___FML FML FML)
I know doing all these is for my won benefit, for my own good. But please, I cannot concentrate doing one while keep on worrying for another.
Saturday, January 31, 2015
What my Research is about?
What is my project is about?
In simple words, my project is to find out what is in the air. In the air we breathe in, there are particulate matter. Particulate matter so fine that they can enter our lungs and live there as long as they like. As you all know, in small dosage, it won't bring any harm, but if you breath in the same pollutant, small dosage, but everyday, can you imagine the effects?
My job is to identify each and every chemical present in the particulate matter. Then, from this compositions, I find the sources, means find who or where this pollutant was mass produced.
We blame other countries for the haze, the haze really come from there? You sure? Not from the non-stop burning of trashes in out backyard?
Yes. My research is that simple. Not inventing new technologies to clear up all pollutants or come up with great theories or equations. I made it a rule to not produce any mathematical equations that can be utilize universally. It's a sin for school students. *winks*
(Actually, the reason is I am not that capable. I am not Einstein or Hawking. I am not that observant to be Newton or Archimedes either).
That's all bout my explanation of my research.
My job now, other than my own project, I am involved in other projects. Voluntarily or involuntarily, I have to do it. I have to write journals. I have to attend conferences and write proceedings. Which is very hard. But from now on, these are my main job scope.
Take or leave.
The Road Taken
Oh gosh. This blog is ancient. I am sorry for neglecting you bloggie and I am sorry I blogged only when I am feeling not that fine. *not in terms of health
Okay, back to the title of the day. The Road Taken.
I am twenty-five this year. Not that young anymore, not that old either. But some friends or more accurately acquaintances of my age, they already have their family. Lovely little kids. Warm and sweet.
Sometimes I feels like I wished I could be like them. A simple girl, not asking for much, not dreaming for much. Not that attention seeker (yes I am, and finally admitting it), not the kiasu bitch. Just a simple girl, marries, work as a clerk. Went home and cook for my husband, stay at home and do housework (I am quite a good cook and I do keep my room clean and tidy).
But sadly, I am not that kind biddable girl. I am the one that always want to be better. Not the best, maybe the second-best. The shallow chit that likes luxuries. The silly dreamer that really thought that she can change the world.
Sorry, out of topic, back to the point. I am 25, and I didn't get a job after graduating my bachelor degree. Instead, I apply to further my studies. Another 3 more years. And not at overseas universities, but in a quite not-that-developed town in Terengganu. Because I want to work under my supervisor, and stay in my comfort zone. Coward.
I am in a stable relationship for 5 years (still ongoing) and my beloved is working in Singapore. It's not that far away, not that near either. And he needs to work, means not much holidays or leave. When I was still in my Bc. degree, I don't think long-distance is a problem. Maybe it's because he i still studying and there's not much happening around, and I have my roomies here with me. But when he start working, we talked more often, and he visits more often and thus, makes me more dependent and always asking for more. Sometimes I feel it's quite unfair for him because he have to suffer along due to my selfish decision of continuing my studies. But still, he never complaint, just show his never ending support. I am so lucky that he loves me because I believe there is not other that can do the same.
I asked myself all the time, what am I doing my PhD? I got a few ready answers.
1) Because I don't like to work in an office, with the same chores everyday.
2) Because I can?
3) To make him proud? To make them proud?
Only the last reason is more logic and legit (I always keep this to myself), to save the world. To make the world a better place. It's a big dream.
I am always contradicting myself. I studied about environment, how to protect them, keep the world clean, preventing pollution, treating waste, but I used non-environmentally friendly products. All the time. I thought about it all the time and find that I can't be an actual environment activist. But I really hope I can reduce pollution.
And so, I chose this road. PhD. Nice to hear. Nice to see. Dr. Fong. In reality, it's not that nice. I exchange this with my most precious asset, TIME. I am stranded here all alone. No more roomies, no more bestie. No more boyfriend. I missed so much. But I hope my choice will bear the fruit. I hope I won't regret when I harvest the fruit of the tree I planted today.
I chose this road, and I will not envy the others. I am born not to be meek and gentle.
I am repeating to myself everyday. I can do it. It's worth it. Nothing good comes easy.
FML. I can type 700 words for this blog but I can only write 100 word for my literature review. Well done.
Thursday, September 4, 2014
Crisis? Oh god! My prophecy!
My research partner just drop me a sad news. Me and him, call him Brother Sam, planned to apply for the myphd scholarship after our graduation. This scholarship will cover all our tuition fees throughout the postgraduate course duration with monthly allowance of RM2300. With this scholarship, we never bother about anything and just think of study study and study. Then, the scholarship changed the terms and now we cannot apply anymore.
Can things be any worse?
And while typing the title for this post, I recalled the prophecy that I get from the prayers in a temple in Hong Kong. I asked whether I can grad my PhD without much barriers or obstacles. The answer I got says tat "I may lose something and I may be very sad, but in the end, everything will works out accordingly."
Oh please, I cannot handle suprises and shocks.
God help me.
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Reviving my blog
Monday, December 24, 2012
Back to December
It's Christmas Eve. And it makes me think of you again. So I look through the old photos. I didn realised you've grown old and there are more and more white hairs on your head..
You're a big tree, holding us together.Giving us support. Never endlessly caring for us, worrying us.
I remember, there's once, Uncle Micheal ask me, what animal resembles himself, I said rooster. Because at time time, I think rooster is nice and not scary and easy to find, easy to be with. This is just like Uncle Micheal. Always willing to teach me new things, fascinates me and most important, play with me.
Then he ask again, what animal resembles Uncle Yim. I'm whispered "bulldog". This is because, Uncle Yim is large and fierce and makes me trembles. It's like he can simple crash me without effort. Whenever he is around, I'll be very stiff. I dont understand why I'm so afraid of him that time. I trembles and my hearts almost stop whenever I show him my report card from school. I tried to avoid him in all means at home, scared that he will give me extra revisions, dictations and assignments.
And this man became one of the most important in my life that I feel stupid for being scared of him, feeling silly for avoiding him at home. I wished I could have more time to be with him now.
Another long post about you again.
How I wished I could go back to the December, when you're still around.
Love you, and hope that you'll watch over me, and him and her.
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
About the Doom's Day
They says, the world will be in total blackout for 3 whole days due to the alignment of the universe.. Donno what shifting from 3-D to Zero-D and go to 4-D thing. =_=
Seriously, I rather you swept us all than have 3 day of darkness.
Imagine staying in Kuala Terengganu, which is the monsoon season now, we dont need 3 days of total darkness to increase our misery. Other than that, I have no time for 3 days break. The week of these total blackout suppose to be my study week and I have 3 damn Test 2 and 1 presentation. FML.
I dont know why my Tests seems endless. I have Tests every week. If I dont, means that week have presentations.
And people should be spending time doing things they like and being with their loved ones, and for us, who are studying away from home, this is the worse form of death.
We died in the state of
- having no nice food for the previous month (since mid-sem break, worse for those who didn go home during that time)
- having no relatives with us other than our beloved housemates and coursemates
- very cold or soaked, due to the non-stop rain here
- not even sleeping on a comfortable bed (we bought cheap mattress here)
- not even wearing one of your favourite garments
- not even have the chance to do something we like
- and lastly, not even have the chance to see our beloved one for the last time
If I believe that the doom's day is coming and I spend my time doing things I like, then the dooms day please come. If not, I will have another dooms day coming. Spent 3 happy day and then face the consequences of not doing revisions.
And finally,my conclusion is, I dont believe about Doom's Day. If it come, better kill me and all those cockroaches all together. So that cockroach will finally extinct.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
My Wide Range of Interest
So as outdoor activities like hiking, camping, or even under the sun.
Other than that, anything, simply everything can catch my interest.
I can read and read and forget my meals.
And imagine I reach the level that my mum commented "READING AGAIN? CAN YOU PUT DOWN THAT BOOK?"
Haha.. usually parents will be very happy to see their children reading.. dunno why she like tat one. Ish.
Dramas.
I layan everything. Means I watch everything.
Korean. Hong Kong. Taiwan. China. English. Never started tamil yet. >.<
Animations.
OMG. Super addicted and I can watch and re-watch them and still can laugh one.
Recommendations: ONE PIECE.
(I have 5 pending tests now and I still got time to promote One Piece, proves that I'm super die hard fans)
First, I watch FairyTail.. this kind of animations is those adventurous and full of warming friendship type. At that time, only 80++ episodes out, and after I finished them, I felt so sad. =( Parting with Natsu and Grey Fullbuster.. then my friend copied OP to me and OMG. *beams*
Best animation. And the best of the best is, it is long and you wont feel sad because you know it wont end here.
You know the feeling when you read a book and it comes to the ending you felt so sad and feel like you dont want to leave..
Knitting. Cooking. Arts and Crafts.
I did all of thing in my free time. ^^
And latest interest is, I read manga too.
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
It's Good To Have Awesome Group Members
I m now working on my Air Quality Monitoring Report, which is a report done based on our sampling on two monitoring sites, the urban and rural area, indoor and outdoor. Tomorrow is the due date. And our baby is almost done. Yes. Thank God.
I am very happy that this report was done without major arguments and most of the group members are very very co-operating. We sit down, discussed and divide work. And each of us work out on our own part, and when we finished, we volunteered to do more, help the others and in the end, things were done smoothly. Very glad as I'm doing half of the compilation and edit the grammar and proof read. Most of the things were done by the time I want to compile and I just have to edit the sentences a bit to join everything.
Glad. And happy.
Okay. Only the Appendix and Conclusion part left. We have 5 hours tomorrow to do this.
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
My Awesome 22nd Birthday Party
I've invited my beloved OGG friends (secondary school friends) and some relatives.
I love them. They brought sooo much laughters and joy into my life. Soo much.

































